"Love me now, love me never, but if you love me, love me forever."

Random Joy Rides With My Dearest.

2009-08-03T23:32:00.000+08:00

It's practically 11.36pm.
Jus received a call frm dear, gonna meet him at 12am.
It's so nice having a random night out with him.
Goin for a short ride with him.
Sucha sweetheart <3
Guess he really has been tryin to prove to me that things are different this time (=
We've been meeting up here & there.
I'm glad to say that so far things are looking up.
Like my fren's said, "Don't bother abt wad others hav to say, at the end of the day it's jus u n him."
Great advice!
All i can say is LOVE is a wonderful, complicated feeling.
But it makes everythin feel jus right.
Alright ppl, i gtg now. 15 mins to get ready.
Oops!!
See ya'll.

Capricorns In General (the most accurate)

2009-07-01T09:35:00.002+08:00

CAPRICORN = THE SEXY ONE [12 DEC- 19 JAN]

You are: The Lovable Eyes.

She is Spontaneous, Smooth and Loving.

She is what most guys want to find, date and marry.

That simple.

She’s adorable, cute, sexy, innocent,

easy-going, friendly, and fun to be around.

Pretty much the perfect companion.

She’s delicate and needs to be handled with

loving hands and there won’t be any

shortage of guys willing to handle her.

In a relationship,

there is only one rule with

The Lovable Eyes- Don’t F#%k Up!

That’s it.

Don’t cheat on her,

don’t lie to her,

don’t mistreat

or abuse her and

she will be yours for a lifetime.

It's time for a CHANGE to happen.

2009-07-01T05:28:00.002+08:00

I always believed that anything is possible if one strives hard enough to accomplish whatever they want to do.
Anyone can give you support but only you, yourself can make things happen.
Like the saying, " You can bring a horse to the water but you can't force it to drink."
I think this might just be for the best cause some ppl have opened up my eyes to the world and it's possibilities.
I think i can humbly say i wanna learn i wanna try and i am not afraid if i fall.
I know i have to assure myself that i can do it,
make a change 360 degrees would be awesome but step by step.
(=
Thanks guys for all the talks, understanding, chances and advices.
I appreciate the friendship & warmth you guys surround me with.

The NEW me!

2009-06-20T17:49:00.002+08:00

Random Observations About Ppl

2009-06-20T17:28:00.002+08:00

I'm pretty impressed with the way some ppl think & carry themselves unlike others who tend to get fussy and react in a childish manner over issues that are not essential and ever so often contradict everythin they stand for. The way one potray's themselves to others is how the world sees you as.
Sucha disappointment!..
Can you imagine getting angry just because someone did not offer you stones for dinner?---> It's an example.
But the real concept is some what similar.
Superficial ppl nowadays.

Trust me if any given person at the moment were to hear the incident you would personally tell me that it's damn silly and childish.

If i'm in the wrong i would never dare have a confrontation.
Thats me and the fact that i dare to stand and have something to say to every angle of this some what shocking but retarded news it clearly shows.

I've actually consulted a number of ppl on this issue which actually isn't any big hoo-haa to get pissed about but the person is and guess what?
Every single one of them said, "this person is seriously childish and needs to grow up. Don't waste ya time on someone like this. Don't stoop to the person's level! You are better than that."
*F.Y.I: These ppl are aged from 21yrs old-35 yrs old.

Well ppl i rest my case.
Thats all i have to say for now.
Gtg off to work.
Shall update soon.

Out with the Honours bunch & back to Macs after 1 week.

2009-05-25T05:33:00.007+08:00

Went dwn to this place today, it had an awesome view.

It was soooooooo breath-taking i tell you!

Drove by Adam Rd, saw the biggest houses you can ever spot in Singapore.

Those ppl are freaking rich. Sucha nice time spent.

Lesly was the culprit behind all this. Lol.

His Mitsubishi Lancer was the coolest shit i've ever seen.

The modifications to his performance & suspensions was at it's best.

He has to tune his car every 6 months can you believe it???

The wasted thing is my hp camera stinks in the dark and i'm the smartest bum.

Totally forgot to bring my camera dwn so no photos for the car & the places i went to.

Maybe next time i'll get a snapshot and post it over here eh?

Hehe. No promises though, don't knw when i can catch him again.

He's busy with his Honours Final Project!

Pity the fella he had to go home cos' tmr morning he has to report to school at 8am.

Thank goodness he dropped me off at Macs and i met Renee & her friend which i neva saw before (whom neva told me his name!) Rude much?

Self-introduction would have been more polite yea?..

Haha! Nutcases! Met her had my "overdue" dinner at 12 midnight!!!

Ate fries & drank green tea. See i stayed away frm coke!

Hmph!?! Bums!.. Hmm.. anyways i gtg slp now.

Good night peeps!

Diploma In Business Management!!!! YAY!?!

2009-05-23T18:01:00.002+08:00

=) Officially GrAdUaTed TODAY!!! Yay! Awesome!?! (=

Still sick though haven't really cured. Hmm.. leg still hurts like Krazeyy!!.. Back to work 2nyte!

Random Events & Encounters.

2009-05-19T11:07:00.009+08:00

TUESDAY(TODAY):

Woke up at 7.45am.

No idea why. Slept around 11plus last night.

MONDAY:

When down to the clinic to get my knee checked and get an answer for my feet as to why it got swollen all of a sudden on Saturday.

Haiz. Went down to Amk Hub for dinner and to finally get my Old Chang Kee "squid-squid" Lol.

FRIDAY-SUNDAY:

Hmm.. Was at Wldlds till 7pm then i headed to work.

Super tired but manage to survive till Saturday morning.

Sadly, on the way home frm work in my company's transport Ella noticed that my left feet had seriously swelled up. It was really bad =(

Hmm.. I think i'm too fragile, been fallin ill gettin injured.. haiz.

His mummy soaked my feet in hot water to bring dwn the swelling.

It actually worked. Haha. But it's a torture i tell you.

Didn't go to work on Saturday. Had a gd rest at Wldlds till Sunday.

Headed down to Wldlds library to my surprise i stayed there for more than 4 hrs.

Lol. Borrowed a book on Violets. Interesting novel.

Becoming a bookworm thanks to him. Hehe.

Well, headed home around 9pm that day.

As for the rest of that week nth much to update.

Except for Wednesday, it was Renee's Mum's B'day.

LaDiEs NiGhT!

Went dwn to Arena.

Had a great time. I think i had a gd workout dancing.

Lol. When i took a short break outside it looked like i jus took a shower.

Hahaha. Crazy day. This malay girl actually asked for my number cos' she wanted to club together next week.

Anyways..
Jus needa break, feel like flyin off for a holiday asap.
Feelin so poofy over here.

Meeting Fadli later on.

Heading dwn to town & west side.

Work, work, work! Tired!

Argh!!!
Bump into my ex-bf Ryan at Serangoon area.

Weird encounter.. hmm.. he ask me if he has a chance to reconcile the relationship we once had. Jus very shock abt these random events that hav been happening lately.

Thats all for now. Gtg get ready.

"Life is full of unexpected twist & turns it's how one handles each situation that matters!"

Mampus sei. Malas nk layan org yg selalu suke buat kelaka.

U are my sunshine after the rain.

2009-05-13T05:16:00.005+08:00

It's 5.35am!

Damn early in the morning and i'm awake.

Brr.. it's freezing over here, i think it was raining earlier on or smth.

When i woke up there were 4 msgs frm him! 5 miss calls & 1 msg frm Renee!

I knocked out halfway while msgin him.

I think he can predict my future or smth.. lol.

Cos' he told me Renee would call me after her movie at AMK Hub [Star Trek]

Haha. She ask me to join her at Macs. But i was aslp so yupp.

When i woke up and decided to call her she didn't answer.

He on the other hand, i msged and called but no response except for one msg that was sent to me.

I think either his mum or sister msg with his hp. YIKES!!!

Tmr workin. Argh!

Gonna be bored to death.

This week thurs - on standby, fri & sat workin.

Hmm.. can't seem to fall back to slp.

Eyes are too wide open.

Haiz. I'm gonna rely on the tv to accompany me from now till whatever time i feel sleepy.

Don't feel like clubbing tonight. It's been 4 weeks since i last went clubbing.

Yupp. I know it sounds shocking but i really hav been busy with other matters.

Hope i'll hav time to chill-out soon.

Jus gonna lay down the highlights.. lazy to type.

TUESDAY:

Went to Vivo to change his sim-card, cos' it got rejected.

Headed down to Boon Lay to meet his frens for a while.

FRIDAY & SATURDAY:

After work was at wldlds all the way.

Spend time with family.

Sunday K.O at home, was too darn tired to do nuts woke up at 4am!

Thats my update for now.

Take care!

I'm in Love with a StRaNgEr!..

2009-05-06T19:33:00.005+08:00

Yesterday, went dwn to wldlds.

Had dinner with everyone.

They were so damn sweet towards me.

Hehe. NO COKE! So sad.

Causeway Point was awesome!

That monkey's sisters said, "when ya'll get married buy ur rings frm this shop".

Lol. Funny. Haiz.

Feel like a part of me is missing.

That fella havin headache all.

Hmm.. Well i'm gonna head out now.

Gotta work.

See ya'll.

The Photographic Evidence. SGH.

2009-05-04T22:24:00.005+08:00

Blood shed tears of sorrow.

It hurt like hell & i wish i neva survived it.

Damn nonsense i'm facing now at home.

Argh!

Was in A & E and i gotta face all the nonsense now.

Haiz. I'm so outta here permanently.

I soooo wanna cry it ALL out of my system badly.

I jus wanna be alone for now.

*I tear my heart open i sew myself shut my weakness is that i care too damn much!

I Miss You Like Krazeyy!..

2009-05-04T19:29:00.007+08:00

Hey there, jus updated my blog.

I might be goin down to wldlds later on.

Saturday, we went down to VivoCity.

Watched 17 Again. Had lunch at Earle' Swensens.

Ordered the Crayfish & Seafood platter for 2 ppl. Plus one salad bar.

Love the potato & tuna salad (: Yummy yum yum!

Hmm.. he sent me home & i fell sick.

Didn't go to work. Sry team. I heard we were dwn by 3 staff.

On MC till Wednesday. Yikes!?!

Sunday went to Sentosa with the entire family.

Settled down at Pelawan Beach. Had tons of fun. Will upload those pictures asap.

Hehe. Hmm.. Took the monorail went for dinner at Vivo.

Walked around Peninsular Plaza. Then headed home.

By the way landed up in SGH. He accompanied me all the way.

Haiz. That poor boy didn't even sleep. Felt so so so bad.

Was on 2 different drips, sodium chloride & glucose.

Argh!! Painful. Jus got home today. Zzz.. Sleepy!..

My blood rushed thru' the tube was very bad. I actually fainted.

Thank god nothin else happened. Phew! =X

Well, i jus need some space now hse things are turnin topsy-turvey.

Ok i gtg now. Will update ya'll next time i'm free.

Adios!

ChinaOne (=

2009-04-30T05:21:00.002+08:00

Hey i'm offically back and starting my blog up again.

So much has happened!

I bump into Renee my childhood friend of 13 yrs at circular rd.

It was so awesome after we exchanged numbers.

Hehe.

We've been meeting non-stop at our "central" cos' we live one avenue away.

So awesome!

Went dwn to my workplace had drinks and all.. and she made me SING with the band, "Always Be My Baby" hahaha.

Mental girl!

We hav soooo much in common it's so fun being around each other.

By 23 i'm out into OUR new condo apartment babe.

Can't Wait!!!

Hmm.. she's goin off to malaysia for the weekend gonna miss that bum.

Lol.

Cooless shit we've done in the past 3 weeks eh?

Wahahaha!

Emo songs seem to follow u EvErYwHeRe my dear renee.

I've been tryin to upload to pictures on facebook but i think something is wrong with the system.

Will upload some here bit by bit though.

Don't wanna flood my blog with mere pictures.

70 over shots we took together.

Crazy i tell ya.

Finally some peace in my like after so much drama.

Yay!

Graduated!!!

Doing my degree in August!

So stoked!?! At 20 yrs old man.

BOOOOOOOOYAAAAAA!

Feel like playin pool think i gonna head down to TP to play with Michael, Mark & the gang.

Gonna take bike pract man!

Kawasaki bike 2B.

Newton will be our new "central" soon.. maybe in july!

Kk gtg.

For now i love my awesome crazy fun-loving babe!

Nyte!!!

Lovin life.

2008-09-03T15:24:00.002+08:00

Hey all,
been ages since i updated my blog.
Been super busy with school having exams now.
On Monday i had my marketing paper.
It was alright.
This Friday will be doing my BM paper.
Once that is over, it'll be the holidays for me till October 5th.
Heh.. well, gonna go outta S'pore for a bit with my friends for the holidays.
Will keep ya'll posted on it.
Hmm.. anyways the night life has been awesome!
Having the time of my life with my darlings.
Work on the other hand has it's plus points..hehe..
Personal life? hmm.. has it's pro's now.
Happy as always & david's coming back in Sept!
Hahaha.. alright i gtg hit the books.
:) kisses to my darling nephew!

Sugar rush- studyin working planning OMG!

2008-08-07T23:18:00.003+08:00

1. Tmr there is a MARKETING PAPER.
2. WORK, WoRk, work..
3. Bestie's B'day is coming up.
4. School itself, major load!

Chickens = KFC ppl
Bestie taught me this.

15th goin O'Bar for her "clubbing" b'day celebration.
hehe.
Gonna hav it with our ITE clan.
Needa catch up.
I kena "scold" frm Rafe.
He said 2 months me & bestie neva contact him..haha!
Been uber busy la.. until i don't even hav the chance to update my own blog.
Horrible i tell u..
BUT, alot has happened.
Yes, i hav moved on and i'm stayin strong..
I'd like to thank everyone who has been my comfort and strength it's been a great help =D
love ya'll to bits!

ok i gtg hit the books before i sleep.
I don't wanna flop the paper.

kisses;
amelia :)

2008-07-23T01:14:00.002+08:00

I'm not at fault and i know you're not in the mood.
I'm gonna just let you cool off. ok?
I know for a fact yesterday's outing which led to you oversleeping wasn't the reason why you got the letter today.
You've missed more than 3 lessons even way before yesterday from what i heard.
Meaning to say that even if you had attended lessons today you would have received the letter no matter what. You see why i don't get it? Cause you made it sound so wrong. As a matter of fact i have no regrets i don't regret anything but i'm disappointed thats all. I never expected you to become so shallow you're 22 yrs old.
I thought you were more mature than that.
I hope when you cool off you realise that you just threw the ball in my court and just ran off. Not very nice.
No matter what you're my friend but if because of this you decide to start being weirdy-weirdo then everyone is gonna think something is a mist.
You said it's between me and you so pls do think yea?
I've been more than understanding hopefully you realise it.
I know you told me of your temper and stuff and yes, evryone has theirs set of flaws even i too have some.
But this isn't very nice of you even Shareena was saying "it's way toooo much".
See what i mean?..
Well yea alryte i'm tired i had enough for today.
All i can say is i am a patient girl and yes i can understand your position but don't go around hurting others just cause you're angry we're all human after all so have some respect pls?...
Thank you.
Alryte, plainly said TODAY is just not my day!?!
Argh!!!!!!!!!

The life i see.

2008-07-17T03:16:00.002+08:00

Something wasn't right from the start and i had a vibe bout it.

You can never tell an outcome of a situation

2008-07-14T04:47:00.003+08:00

Gd morning!
It's practically 4.50am and i'm blogging.
I've been living in my own world since exams till now.
Busy with school, studying, exams and obviously work.
It's the holidays but still been busy.
I think it's been ages since i went out 1 whole day and just chill out, have a shopping mania or catch a movie or just go crazy with my friends.
It fustrates me i can't even have time for myself.
Argh!
He(SJ) called- explained, apologized endlessly, been hogging up my free time cause i didn't wanna see him so i have no space for others... i feel bad..
I ready said i need time to think.
Simple as that.
No fuss just let me be.
On the other hand Judin and gang have been a blast!
Meeting them today(Monday) evening.
I don't knw what's the plan but i'm sure they'll cheer me up.
Hmm.. now it's just my laptop and me.
I accidently left my ipod at my cousin's place collecting it tmr so yupp.
David e-mailed me. Long story trust me ya'll will kill me if i blog the whole story.
Plus i'm feeling sorta lazy to type it ALL out.
Brr.. so darn cold outside weather is awful i tell you.
To Shaneet thks for friday it was sweet but i was working so yea kinda inconvenient and
To Aaron pls pls pls take care of urself don't let that fever get any higher eh?
It was nice meeting you.
As for Juls my dear girl thks for coming down to see me at work on Saturday,
i still so can't believe you came to my work place all the way from
Kepple Bay. You were at a private party on an island and you still came to surprise me. Super impressed. I'm touched! Sucha sweet friend.
Love ya babe so awesome seeing you.
For Bestie she's been ultra busy.. meeting next week to go sentosa.
I miss school can you believe it??
Starting my new term on the 21 of July 08'
"_ ____ ___"
Watch Kal Ho Na Ho today sucha nice movie damn touching storyline.
It really shows what a person can do for the one they really love and the sacrifices the person can make just to see the person they love remain happy forever.
But in reality it's hard to find a guy like that hehe.
Oh well.
kk i'm feeling sleepy gotta wake up early later on.
Night.

Back to square one? I don't think so!

2008-07-04T05:29:00.003+08:00

I'm home!
Work was fun :)
Finished at 4am!
Haha!
Today's sales was gd!
Hmm.. did closing all by myself and guess what, NO shortage wahahaha!!!
Damn happy it's a damn huge accomplishment for me.
Daisy told my boss i can do solo ready it's a plus point cause they want me to do Sundays too.
Hehe.
Well, not tired wide awake.
Didn't drink that much today jus 1 turkeila shot and 3 vodka lime thats it.
Today received $25 in total for tips haha.
Happy as ever!
Missing my sweetest boy.
Oh well he's working what to do?
Just waiting patiently for his call.
Today got event so yupp will be busy from 6pm onwards.
Goodness it's already FRIDAY wow next week exams and thats it.
Mugging since last week plus working but it'll be worth it once it's all over.
uhum!
Ok, it jus started pouring badly at my area.
But i love the rain so soothing to sleep.
Alright i'm goin to study.

lovelove!..

Amelia.

daily normalities

2008-07-03T06:57:00.003+08:00

It's a Thursday morning and i'm up.
Bright and early.
Actually, i haven't slept a wink yet.
Not tired, been thinking alot.

1 week of holidays.
To me it's more like = 1 week of studies and work.
It's study week.
Having exams the following monday and wednesday.
The week is going by pretty fast i must say.
Work has been a toll on me.
But it's worth it.

SJ was offshore on monday.
Was working nothin much was pretty busy.
Was at Yishun with my godsis, her bf and the rest of the grp.
Met her at 4plus.
Saw Jacob at Yishun.
Coincidence much?
He's on holidays too.
We were all just talking till about 8plus?
Then we headed to Yishun SAFRA club to play pool and all.
Was fun.
SJ wanted to meet me after work at around 9 plus but..
when he went home he had to help out with some stuff and he couldn't make it.
He was sayin sorry alot.
I told him it's ok.
I know he's busy.
Around 11 plus went down to Time to just have a look-see.
It was full house.
My boss was sayin payday people flock to spend their cash like water.
What to do.
Hmm..

tuesday,
woke up kinda late.
I think around 3pm?
Was too damn tired to wake up at 11am to do my cheque.
It's collecting web in my beloved wallet.
Oh well, good news is that bestie called and while i was talking to her SJ called.(4pm)
Haha. Was so happy.
Yupp he was like;

SJ: "Hey girl, whr u?"
Me: "At home, y?"
SJ: "Just woke up?"
Me: "Nope, was up a while bk."
SJ: "U free? Goin anywhr?"
Me: "Not at the moment, mayb around 9pm heading to work."
SJ: "Ok, i'm at AMK now can i come down to meet you?"
Me: "Ok :)"
SJ: "My dear girl, hav u eaten?"
Me: "Nope, having dinner before work but for now no appetite."
SJ: "Alright, we'll hav dinner together :)"
Me: "Ok msg me when u reach."
SJ: "Ok see u in 15 mins."
Me: ":) alright."
SJ: " Take care, miss u alot!"
Me: "Same here."

-> the rest shall not be said here for now, bestie knws why.

Met up at 4.25pm.
Was talking about alot of things all was good though.
Hehe.(only a few knw bout the gd news)
Had dinner together at about 7pm?..
He actually said he misses me more than 5 times crazy boy.
I'm happy with life as it is.
Letting life fall into place and taking everyday as it comes.
:) I feel appreciated again and it's sucha nice feeling. I missed it alot.
To be loved more than u love is an undeniable factor that is worth experiencing in life.
He actually "stole" my wallet to get my bank account number.. hmm..
he is worried, he worries alot.
he feels he "owes" me $30 from the previous cab fare which i took to his area last week.
I tried to refuse but no that boy will never let me go unless i took it willingly.
And i had work so yupp, no choice.
Not gonna touch the cash i feel bad.
FYI he thinks i'm spending it for my own expenditure but nope i'm not.
Had work at 9pm i wanted to take bus to work nope again he look at me and smiled and he took a cab and drop me off at work.
He then headed back home then to work again.
-he off both his phones when he met me which was so sweet of him so when he switch on his hp at 8 plus there were alot of msgs from his work phone, his captain called he was needed on ship :(
Sweetest ever.
Special yes, unique yes, and definately different and worth treasuring.

He'll be back on friday night or saturday morning.

Wednesday,
talked to SJ at around 4pm.
He called. That fellow played a prank on me just a few minutes before he called me so evil :(
Bestie was laughin her ass off when she found out it was a mere prank.
Hmm.. bully kecik!
Ya'll made my heart drop during those msgs ok.
So bad. I was convince that it was true i even wanted to crawl in a corner and cry.
But when SJ heard my voice he was like,
"my dear are u cryin? omg! I was just kidding. Sorry dear so sorry."
But before he realise i was tearing he was laughin these two monkeys(bestie & SJ) i tell you gosh!
No comment.
:(

SJ will be calling on Friday unless if he's free from work he'll call today.(thurs)

Met bestie for dinner it was sorta last minute which is our usual case.
We're just too random sometimes i think we're crazy.
She had meeting at AMK but nooooo this funny girl neva double check before leaving her house.
She travel all the way there waste bus fare. Know why? The meeting was CANCELLED..
During her travelling to AMK till she realise it was cancelled we were chatting over the phone.
Since we both haven't ate all day we decided to meet at my area first.
Had dinner at Kovan.
After dinner we went bananas we were literally;
talking, laughing, crying, emo-ing, stonning, thrashing(verbally) about some ppl, talking, joking, fearing cats, singing, playing, walking, lauging again........
Imagine from 9plus at night till 3plus in the morning we were going crazy!?
I seriously don't know what got into us.
This is the dangerous thing when you put two crazy individuals together.
Muahahahaha!
Ehhem!!
Ok. Well we caught up with each other's life.
Super crazy lives we both have!
Thanks girl for the support and honesty.
Would have gone nuts if it weren't for you and david.
Anyways came home at about nearly 4am.

~Missing you and this feeling inside is so true.
Just can't deny it. Thank you for being the sweetest to me.
Will be waiting till you return this weekend.
You create moments that last forever.
Keep on smiling cause it's one thing that captured my heart.
:)

Today,
working at 7pm. Zzz..
worn out seriously!
Nothing much, gonna head to AMK to do my cheque at around 2pm.
Meeting bestie at AMK she accompanyin me.
Will be having lunch/dinner= lunner<<

OMG!!!
SJ jus msg me hehe :)
I'm surprised!
So sweet of him.
Oh well.
Talkin to him. Be right back.
Ok i'm back!
He is sucha ass-wipe!...
He's still disturbing me bout the prank.
:(

He's starting work so he jus called to say," Gd Morning!" and so on "______________"
And he was like being damn sweet over the phone,
gosh! u tell me how to get angry with this monkey?
Hmm.. too cute to get upset with, too sweet to get angry with, too understanding to hav a misunderstanding with..
I seriously am impressed.
Hee! Lucky me.
kk gtg now he's calling back soon.
Gonna catch a shut eye after his call cause i haven't slept yet.
Having panda eyes ain't a good thing so yea.

Take care to all!

::ilovebeingmeforonceinmylifeihavatreasurethaticancallmyownandhelovesmeformethksdear::

btw, bestie and i hav been talkin bout tatoos wahaha, shall update another day eh?
night ppl, actually morning to ya'll gd night to me :)

crazy amy.

The simple things in life is what i'm looking for.

2008-06-30T00:35:00.002+08:00

I'm home. Very sad.
Jus came back from meeting SJ.
We were only out for a short while.
He's heading to work now the captain called.
He was apologizing cause he felt bad, he said tmr around 4pm he'll call me.
He will be back on shore by 4pm.
I'll be at Yishun so it's nearby to meet up.
He wants to meet up tmr to make-up for today.
Miss him alot.
He looked so sad today.
He's angry with THOSE PEOPLE for bugging me at work bout US!
Even i myself have not enough time to sleep, be with mummy or even with bestie or godsis.
I met godsis at 7pm.
Meeting her tmr at 2pm.
She said she needs me there and she misses me so since i'm on 1 week break i'll be heading there.
Met SJ at 9.45pm.
Talk for a bit he's worried bout stuff- shall not mention here.
He asked why i look so stressed up and worried,
told him i'm stress bout work, school, bestie having some issues she's upset and i told him lastly i'm worried for him cause he seriously thinks alot, poor boy.
Bought him dinner.
He was surprised.
Crazy bum.
Some people just can't leave US alone!
They gotta be so KPO!?
Argh!!!
C'mon man it's our life not yours!..
I seriously don't get why people like this even exist it's annoyin and fustrating!!!
LEAVE US ALONE!
Some people just gotta learn the hard way to shut their trap!?!
As for me, i'm waiting for his call now just hanging online till he calls.
He has to clear with the captain then he'll call me.
Been working and schooling back-to-back this whole week.
Seriously, no life man.
Tiring. Monday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday (WORK!)
In between had exams!!!
Goin' nuts ready i tell you.
kk not gonna elaborate much, i'm tired.
Not been online much so pardon me for that.

love love to all~

you dont own me!
you don't feed me,
you don't support me,
you don't shelter me,
so just shut it!
seriously!!

It's a fear inside me but i gotta face up to it. I'm gonna try this and pray it works.

2008-06-27T06:53:00.006+08:00

Good morning!
Just came home from work at 6am!
Tired but thats life man.
You gotta be hardworking to enjoy life later on.
I'm up, gonna head to school in a bit.
Just thought i'd update on some things since i'm free.
Didn't sleep a wink got school from 9am-5pm.
After that working, i don't knw how i'm gonna meet SJ unless he comes to my work place.
Sucha dilemma i don't wanna be evil i just needa cover for Liza tonight.
Gosh!
Know what this is a shocker to me but yes it's true, i do miss him.
Hope to see him today cause he said after work he wants to see me.
Crossing my fingers real hard.
Well, let's see what happens.
Today have a mock exam at 9am.
Hope i do well.
Been studying.
Later meeting bestie for school.
She has a full-day too.
I'm feeling really grogy and cranky, just gonna lay low today.
Thankfully my working collegues are letting me come in a little late cause they know i'm schooling and working.
Thanks guys.
Honestly, i think i've moved on just that i'm holding myself back which is bad.
Oh well, gotta go get ready for school now.
Take care to all.
Big hugs to people who've been there for me.
Thanks and yes, i'll try this out but i hope it doesn't screw up.
I don't wanna go through the same route again it'd be an agony.

loving living dreaming, the possibilities in life are endless-

I call it LOVE =)

2008-06-25T03:50:00.002+08:00

Hey all, jus gonna update as much as i can and i gtg slp i'm feelin extremely tired.

Yesterday, SJ and i were suppose to meet up but because my boss called i needed to go to work.
Yes ppl, i've found a part-time job i enjoy doing!
He was so sad that i couldn't come for his soccer match nor could i meet him.
But he did want to come down to work to see me jus that it was too late when he got back frm soccer match plus he has work the next day so all they way he was messaging me and he called here and there cause at work i can't hang on the phone so mostly messaging.
Work was fun, manage to have sales though it was on a Monday.
I'm under mentoring for jus that day but so far so gd.
During closing NO SHORTAGE or NO EXCESS cash not bad for my 1st day haha.
Well, i gotta thank the experience i gained frm my previous part-time during the holidays. Ended work so late i went to bed at 4am! Was so tired yesterday.

Today,
Woke up for school on time.
When i left my house i realised i had 8 missed calls and 2 messages from SJ.
He was worried.
Poor boy, he's been a great friend but he shouldn't worry so much.
We were messaging throughout the day even when he was at work and when i was in class. Crazy fella in a positive aspect.
After school we met, he was so happy to see me i wish i could show ya'll how he smiled, it was a giveaway.
Super nice guy.
We were out the whole time. I jus got home at about 1am?
yupp we kinda lost track of the time but it was cool we were nearby so i didn't need a ride back i jus walked home.
(but he really wanted to drop me off even though it was a 10 min walk)
:) i think he hasn't been sleepin properly i forbitten him frm seeing me till friday or saturday.. haha.. he really listen to me like small boy.
Well, respect is gd thing eh?
Oh yes, the bum will be back again. weird creature.
hmm.. i'm yawning so tired, he's asleep ready he's got work and i've got school.
Alright ppl i gtg sleep i'll get slaughtered if he finds out i slept late.

->a day of impossibilities turn into possibilities..
...a day worth waiting and remembering for...
..something's are jus too complex but i knw..

----LOVE---THAT---SMILE---I---SEE---AND---THE---SOUL---WITHIN---

Things jus flipped 365 degrees! For reall!

2008-06-23T09:35:00.003+08:00

Good Morning!

Oh yes, it's 9am and i'm up!

Wide awake bright & early.

Not sleepy though i slept around 2am?..

Haha!

Ok this entry is not gonna be that detailed cos' i'm squeezing Friday, Saturday & Sunday into this entry.

Plus, gotta go study for a bit before goin' to sch.

Btw, things hav changed bestie knws so does Liza, Faz the clique, David and all. It's over. Let's move on. Shall we?

Friday:

Ok, went to time to see Liza. Ended up seeing Kimmy and her sister and friends. Poor thing i really feel bad for her.

I'm praying and so is everyone cos' it'll be a pity if she's stuck on a wheelchair i really hope trhu' physio she can regain her walking abilities.

oh well.

Saw alot of ppl at Time went to Borsche after that went home at 8am. Early eh?..

-the jouney ended here at 10pm. between me & u i knw i can neva forgive u*

Saturday:

Went to Time to meet the rest of the grp, saw baby(she's a hot babe turkila girl in time la) haha.. my godsis, Dave, SJ, Marie, Jade, Raj and the rest of the soccer guys.

Was suppose to be at Time till it closes and head home. AGAIN last minute but this alteration was a gd thing.
They wanted to go clubbing at Silver!
I actually told them my top not appropriate and they happen to hav an extra top goodness!
No choice no excuse so guess it was a fun ALL LADIES night!?
Was at Time with Ana(she's a HOT mum!)
She was sayin how much she misses me and how much she loves me aww.. was so nice of her.
Haven't seen her for 2yrs?..
She was being a little playful we were talkin bout Ian(christian) and she was sayin how shy he is towards girl
i was shock like i think he quite normal with girls haha.. yes people she is Ashton(Marie's bf) & Ian's mum!
She was sayin how she wishes that me and Ian could try it out in the future. sucha funny babe.
Left Time at 2.30am.
Btw, thks to all who bought me drinks.
Went to Silver reach there at 2.45am.
We were lucky, baby knew the owner so we didn't hav to pay cover charge! hehe.
Had fun but not so much like i was tryin my best to be happy.
Then there was this bouncer who requested to dance with me.
I tell u he damn daring cos' clubbers out there you know bouncers aren't allowed to dance when they are suppose to be on duty. Well, he didn't seem that worried.
Gosh people so daring these days.
He bought me like 4 drinks!
- 2 turkeila shots
- 1 Vodka Sprite
- 1 Vodka Soda
Thks!

We left Silver before they closed.
We went for a small bite.
After eating we were goin' our separate ways.
Jade and me were taking the train while godsis and baby were taking cab. While on the way to station bumped into Hilimy.
He asked whr i went i said Silver i mean if i don't answer like i doubt he's that dumb confirm he know i went club.
Omg his mouth will be ranting on today in school he's my classmate people! Argh!
Oh well, nvm.
Manage to get the first train and came home at 7am.
It was raining heavily which was so comfy slept in till 4pm.

Sunday:

Woke up at 4pm, my hp for the very first time was ringing non-stop. First time in my life it was uber busy.

Alot of people were calling me to meet at gardens at chomp chomp for dinner then after that not sure ready. They wanted to meet at 5.30pm a little lazy to rush down.

Other wanted to go BzB or Time. But i can't appear there or the rest might think wrongly cos' i didn't turn up for the dinner appointment. So i told myself it's a stay-in day for me. Hee!

Nope was wrong bout that again! SJ called me. We were talkin for bout 1hr? and he was askin if i had plans i said nope. Then he asked if i wanted to meet him but i told him i was lazy but noooo this boy wanted me to really meet him.

He told me to go get ready and told me to take a cab down and he was gonna pay the cab fare which was $13plus! Crazy boy i tell you. He asked me what i wanted to do and he said i hav to choose cos' he wants me to enjoy myself. This boy is mental i'll say. Well, since he asked i said movie? with a puzzled look. He bought drinks(non-alcohol) for us both cos' i didn't wanna eat it was so late he paid for all the things so sweet. Oh yes we actually went to see Get Smart. Nice show! Damn funny and yes that crazy fella was laughin thru' the show.

In the cinema he was sayin "you're a very sweet girl." ok i had to be honest i told him," i heard it too many times it's a norm to me already, sorry." He said no worries and he smiled. Understanding, lucky me. He said he'd rather me be honest to him so yea. Cool! :)

We were jus talking after the movie and he was telling me on Saturday when i left for the club there was a fight outside Time. So silly. When the police came all ran away,before that all step fierce only. Nonsense. Thats why no one at Time will help or get involve. Then after talkin bout time we were jus catching up. He was being really nice to me to be honest.

Was a little speechless. Haha! Talking bout him he jus msg me. Long life! Lucky fella! He wanted me to rest cos' today hav sch so ard 12.45am he flag a cab gave me $20 for the fare and hug me and said he might come down to see me tmr.

We'll see. kk ppl i'm actually re-writing this story cos' i lost connection jus now. annoyin.

Ok people gtg get ready for sch meeting bestie first.

Loves! :)

Still sick =( a little here and a little there.

2008-06-20T03:11:00.003+08:00

Hey all,
how's things been?
Hmm.. ok i suppose?
Still sick the only thing that has cured is my fever and headache :(
Very sad, imagine during my presentation on Wednesday my voice still sounded odd
but i thank my lucky stars cos' my classmates were so nice they jus jokingly said i sound sexy with a low voice haha..it was jus a comment.
My grp was damn understanding i didn't hav to present much
(compared my original script)
Been resting, Wednesday was the most anoying yet fun day i had.

ORIGINAL PLAN:
Ladies Night @ St. James Powerhouse.
Meeting at 10pm.
CANCELLED!

Plan B:
Ladies Night @ Ministry Of Sound(MOS)
CANCELLED!
Guys wanted to enter for free but their friend wasn't joining us so no "lobang" for them.

Plan C:
Ladies Night @ Attica.
CANCELLED!
Michelle didn't wanna go cancelled on the grp.

Plan D:
Watch the match @ Prata Hse.
CANCELLED!

Plan E:
Watch the match @ BzB.
It was CLOSED strangely..

Plan F:
Go to LV2 to watch the match, play pool & all.
Went there played pool had a pine of (don't remember the name start with G)
End up they were closing at 1am so we left.

Plan G:
Go to TIME to meet Liza and watch the match + pool & all.
Went and ended up being there the whole time.
Was a gd option tho' she really wanted to see me and met a few nice ppl there.
Fairuz and his friend kept betting over Liza and me when we were playin pool..hehehe
Fairuz said i'll win his friend said Liza will win.. funny ppl.. when i won Fairuz kept sayin,"someone is a hustler man" haha! crazy guy i tell you he likes to be a nutcase.
He literally enjoys it.
Had fun actually is wasn't that crowded BUT when they were about to close,
so many ppl started showing up.
Pity Daisy and Liza cos' Shah(the owner not HIM)went back early thinking no customers.
Then actually i lazy to drink cos' my throat all then Uncle came bought everyone a round of drinks can't decline trust me when i say we can't decline(Liza and me tried our luck)
Drank shots lazy to drink mixers cos' they suppose to do closing ready didn't wanna delay
end up watch the match halfway :(
Oh well i knw Sweden won for sure.

Bestie is sick..vomitting, she not goin' school tmr.
Cannot pass her the cd.
Hmm.. anyways today was tiring met Liza after school went to the club to play pool and relax
she damn nice to be around with she "jaga saya macham adik"
thats what she told me her birthday next Saturday so friday celebrating at TIME!
Ohh guess who msg me suddenly?...
Yes ppl, the bum is back in S'pore for two weeks i think.
He msg me outta nowhere as usual.
Actually i was msgin bestie bout some stuff then suddenly got two msgs in my inbox
He "scold me" for NOT replyin his emails BUT i told him i hav been checkin and haven't seeen a mail frm him at all haha.. weird right?..
He chase me to slp early cos' hav school today and i'm still sick,
he heard my voice and he wanted me to rest.. sucha bum!
He's callin me later thats what he said, i'm gonna meet up with his sister soon we miss each other haha.. we were damn close in church so no surprise there..
I'm gonna get my doggie finally.. haha it's a 4 yr old gift sitting in her cupboard :)
He wants to go to powerhouse next week with me on ladies night ahahaha!
He owes me drinks for the invisible mails.. can't wait..
5 free drinks + his treat! Yea man. So gonna enjoy.
ok, gonna slp now before i get "scolding" will update and post pictures tmr or asap.

Plan H:
Jus stick my butt at home.(it was gettin annoyin)
Didn't happen either.

5 days no contact so be it! ~Sick :(

2008-06-18T01:06:00.007+08:00

Well, whr should i start...

School was fun, CS was awesome, but Lina was a little stressed out.

Prefer it when she's her happy crazy self.

She actually msg me to say sorry and i swear i didn't mind cos' she's jus human everyone has "those days".. not menses ppl.. jus "down days"

I didn't even on my laptop yesterday :(
Ok yesterday i came down with a very bad sore throat.

I thought it was jus merely that but i was wrong.

On the way home from school, i was burning up a bad fever and i started to hav a headache, which was pretty bad.

Then started coughing(dry throat burning)

Cough untill cannot breathe properly!!..

Asthma almost triggered took the pump.

Bestie told me to head straight to the clinic before it gets worse.

Was msgin her.

Whats worse, i decided to take 147 for a change instead of 153(usual bus)

practically the smartest ass ever for doing that!..

153 takes max 40 mins to reach home or school.

147 took min 1 hr 15 mins(no jam) max? i don't even want to try it man.

Seriously ppl, don't ever take 147 to school sucha waste of time.

Plus it's way cheaper to take 153, bestie and me were lookin at the bus stop thingy.

When i reach home got a little tired told my mum(over the phone) i was gonna slp early.Knocked out for 3 hrs woke up around 9 plus?..

Mummy insisted on bringing me to the clinic,

parents knw best(in my case my mum)

It's like 15 mins walkin distance to the clinic but she took a cab there gosh!

She was worried i don't blame her.

Luckily for us it wasn't the least bit crowded.

We both went in together,(thats how worried she was so imagine my condition!)

Told the doctor everythin. He took my temperature.. then he said," Take care of ur fever it's pretty high(mum thought like 37 plus) Nope.. it was 39 degrees!

No wonder my eyes kept tearing "macham" i cryin it was annoyin could feel my fever thru' my eyes knw.

Doctor gave the orange pump to control and prevent any attacks plus another ventoline in case my current one runs out.

All together: 6 medicine(2 pumps inclusive)++ 1 day MC

hold up ppl, i knw u must be thinkin, "this girl neva go school".

Sorry not that type of person anymore changed in ite and have been maintaining it.

I still attended Accounting & Finance. Reach school half an hour before class.

Met my classmates, sucha coincidence Xing Ru & me fell sick at the same time

she also came to school she was 30mins late tho'

Fiona, Gwyn, Lina and the rest were talkin to me and also checkin each other's answers for homework but i jus kept smiling throat too sore.

Hee! :) Well, it's getting better but still sick,

mum said "u're not strong enough tho' u can walk around"

hehe..poor mummy she's super worried but she kept playin a fool cos' yesterday i sounded damn soft like a chick oh well thats what she said at least.

Haha! She's been damn nice to me since i graduated.. surprise? even i am!

Yesterday she came home with a big bag look like mummy santa..

She gav me the bag, i ask,"all for me?"

wahahaha!?! Evil me..

Inside had a cotton-on top, 2 cotton-on(u-knw), a (not sure bout the spellin)oops!dorethy perkins top and my fav jacket..hehe.. some day i'll say.. and mummy was being evil taunting me with chips couldn't hav them my throat argh!!! :(

Ohh before i forget, bestie got me a gift from Malaysia.. nothin much jus a decorative candle but it goes well with my collection..

Jerry: Wah! You get sucha nice candle.(photo is at the top of the page)

You knw what she get me?

Me: What? (puzzled look)

Jerry: Facial scrub!

Me: Are You serious?

Hazel y?

Bestie: Something useful?..(can't remember what she say oh no..)

Me: Ur bf knw.. y like that? *giggles*

Jerry: Thats why..

(happen outside school yesterday before lessons)

Funny ppl man. I swear then i didn't knw bestie tell Jerry i lost weight..

..suddenly he said"eh u really lose weight".. i started laughin.. mental man!

Goodness. When we walked into school(Jerry left)..

Bestie was sayin she told him before they came then he didn't believe cos' to

Jerry: "Seeing is believing"

I don't blame him, i knw him for bout a year?.. All the way maintain then suddenly when neva see him for sooo long i lost weight obviously he'll doubt.

Ahahaha.. the things we ppl discuss seriously random..

saw u-knw-who on Monday but it was from a far.

Today nothin much jus a CLAMPED brain frm today's lesson.

I came home did my assignments immediately- seriously!..

Gwyn msg me i told him i finish the work he blur haha.. he said" not hard??"

Me:"Ok what i sorta got the concept"

Gwyn:"Haahaahaa! So hardworking! U shld hav rest first u're sick!"

Me:"If i rest i'll let the work rot"

Gwyn:"Better go rest later tmr got presentation for CS how u gonna talk?.."

Me:"Oh great!"

Gwyn:"Eh, we suppose to form 6 ppl in our grp how?"

Me:"Ask Fiona Xing Ru they all?..
Gwyn:"kk wait...

oh, they hav a grp ready yesterday they form le"
Me:"kk give me a sec i go ask ard.....

....danial was annoyin(KPO)...ask for hilimy number to ask if they wanna join grp..

danial was playin games he kept askin y..argh!!...at first he didn't wanna give...

manage to convince him..

Gwyn:"So how??"

Me:"Ok got a grp ready.. u, me, lina, hilimy, the other guy and Prem..how?

ok with the grp?.."

Gwyn:"i'm ok"

(called lina to double check if she ok also)

CONFIRMED!- 6 ppl in a grp! (Danial not included grp voted)

By the way, we were suppose to form a grp on Monday itself but we forgot..

Was talkin to Prem told him the details, told him to bring certain materials for the project and presentation.. my gosh i sounded half dead talkin to him he must be thinkin"Siala knp prpn ni berbual macham nk mati?"

or somethin like that?... I don't knw what he's thinkin.. oh well..

I'm feeling sleepy.

Dozing off..

Doctor's advice:

NO-
Fried food

tibits

junk

spicy food(man i'm gonna suffer)

alcohol

sodas

drinks

fruits(mum's word)

..citric acid and all..

and u knw..

ONLY-

Water..

Soft food

medication

adequate rest(look at the time!)

`Want to get well soon!(speedy recovery will be great)

Gtg hit the sack it's so late.

Love ya'll:

crazy amy :)

Being jus plain random.

2008-06-15T22:33:00.002+08:00

I'm just waiting, waititng, waiting..
Yesterday, had dinner after sch at "lao pa sak",
ordered: butter crabs (2 crabs), baby squids (fried), stingray, rice.
Hee! Sound so grand but it was a nice dinner.
After dinner went to gardens: ollie mollie
I decided to drop by time in the botlle to see Liza, Daisy, Shah(another person not HIM) and the rest.
At olli mollie's the pool table is always being hogged up. Gets annoyin sometimes.
Since time was not that crowded Liza asked to play with her,
we ended up playin 8 games. hehe. Since i was mostly at time, the rest came over
they got me a lychee martini (i think daisy added more than 2pax)..
Not sure, Liza said her mixing skills still nt that gd.
Hmm.. didn't drink much,
my throat still sore since ladies night.
Was having too much fun that day untill my voice "kena hilang"
but no regrets :)
Tmr having Pam's class, lookin forward to it.
I was talkin to Gwyn jus now, he was sayin bout class
cos' tmr sure to hav loads of activities then if my throat doesn't heal by then it's gonna be a bummer eh?..
Hehe, i'm jus hoping i'll be ok.
Contemplating alot lately,
well i'm only human.
It's jus me being me.
Simplicity is the way.
Today nothin much, church lunch/dinner, watched a movie and jus net surfing and chatting online.
Can't wait for sch!
Bestie is back in S'pore ready.
We talked over the phone she sounded damn sleepy man.
I told her to go slp first, tmr meeting her for sch.. haha.. loads to update..
stuff happened shall keep it private.
she got me somethin frm malaysia. Coolness.
Tmr actually Paul & Rafe wanna meet me and bestie to go out b4 Paul books-in again
but we hav sch and it's bestie's anniversary with her bf so now it's on hold by tmr morning we'll knw if we're all goin to meet up for the outing.
Frm sch easier to head to town straight bus. 7 stops.
It'll be nice if we go ahead with it so long since the 4 of us went out miss ite days with them.
:(
kk i gtg slp Gwyn and Lina tellin me to slp to rest myself up for tmr.
They are super sweet ppl love ya'll!

Kisses*

P.S the POP was gd had fun saw everyone including HIM.
(u're somethin special no matter what)
take care all~

Isolation-

2008-06-14T04:09:00.002+08:00

Isolation-
I really wanna be left alone,
i need my dear friend here but she's currently in M'laysia for the weekend :(

"It's been bleeding all this time and i neva realised that i'm sacrificing my happiness to see u smile"

too much of cam-whoring thks to bestie!!!!

2008-06-12T23:26:00.035+08:00

Hey ppl, soo many pictures and i went crazy doin this cos' was busy with other stuff too.

Well, yesterday bestie & me went to vivo & St. James PowerHouse.

Too much cam-whoring goin' on courtesy of bestie hahaha!!..

We were so happy jus LADIES night out!?! Finally eh?

See, independence pays off.

After PowerHouse, i went to meet Michelle and her frens at Attica,

had fun there so many ppl bought me drinks that night i was surprised hehe.

Neva happen before knw. Cannot blame me. hehehe.

After Attica lights on we went dwn to MOS till 5.30am!!!!!!

Crazy night of clubbing, drinking, dancing, fun man!

Miss this alot! Ahha! Bestie knws the NEWS ready so yea..

I'll blog bout that another time.

WooHoo!!!!!!!!!!! Fucking awesome night ya'll!!!??!!!

Even lina knew i had fun! =)

Cos' i came half dead to class (sleepy la)

Great time!.. Michelle invited me next week for ladies night, we'll see how eh?..

10 turkeila shots, 1 jug of burben, 1 jug beer, 1 jug vodka lime, 1 almond martini

Michelle thinks i'm a crazy ass cos' i was still sober after drinking all that.

Hahaha!! The fun man!.. To all who bought me drinks thks!!! :)

Michelle was telling me i was a mad looney girl cos' when ppl buy me drinks i still ask for shots!!!

Wahaha.. well, thats me for u when i'm serious it's different but i've been away for too darn long!?!

The feeling was so darn nice jus having fun without any worries!..

Love to all the babes and to the guys thks again haha. man yesterday was some crazy shit!!

To all the ppl i danced with u guys were fabulous~

Meet so many new ppl yesterday,

alright, enough verbal diarrhoea gtg do some stuff and slp tmr hav sch all.

~`love me for being me

i love u guys big time, thks hazel for the fun.

so darn true!!

2008-06-11T17:59:00.002+08:00

Enough is enough -

and you feel that you've had enough for a while.

You don't need any more battles.

You just would like to be able to shout 'stop' and

experience a little peace and calm

- even if it be only for a little while.

This doesn't mean that you need to cut yourself

off from the rest of the world

- it just means that you are seeking some respite,

some physical or emotional relaxation that

could release some of the the tension

and possibly reduce the internal conflict.

You are looking for something different.

Your imagination has been working overtime

and you are seeking adventure -

and you'd like to share that adventure,

the new experience,

with someone like yourself: Imaginative, Enthusiastic and Sensitive.

You lack confidence and that is a great pity because

deep down you are indeed a warm caring person.

This lack of confidence is making you wary of being drawn

into any open discussion or conflict and so you feel as

if you should let matters lie and leave well alone.

But there may be a pleasant surprise in store for you.

You are beginning to grow and very soon -

sooner than you believed possible -

this warm loving new you will be available for all to see and to appreciate.

You are feeling trapped by the situation

as it stands at this time and what is more,

you feel powerless to remedy it.

You are stressful, angry and disgruntled.

You feel that everything that you try to do to change

the situation is thwarted and your hopes and

aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future.

You have reached the state where you now doubt

whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is

not only causing mental stress but heartache.

You need to get away from it all -

you need to have time to think,

to recuperate,

to be able to make your own decisions.

You need to be needed and would like a situation

where you will no longer be subjected to pressures

and demands from those about you.

There is no harm in 'dreaming' but it is you

- and only you - that can be able to realise

those dreams and to turn them into reality.

knw somethin yesterday ppl told me the exact same thing gosh!

Flustered mustard.

2008-06-09T17:39:00.003+08:00

I'm in a fumble mumble mood.

Happy-but-sad.

Topsy-turvey world is wad i'm facing now.

I think i was too harsh,

He said: "It was nice meeting up really miss u."

I said: "Yea it was nice catching up."

He said: "U really not gonna try and consider it?

I said: "Sorry, jus prefer to let it be for now."

He said: "I really thought i'd hav a chance."

I said: "Don't think so much relax."

He said: "I'm really upset, not gonna msg for a bit hope u don't mind?"

I said: "It's ok, jus chill yea?"

He said: "Sorry, jus really thought there was hope."

I said: "Hey there, jus calm dwn. things happen for a reason."

He said: "Ok, jus needa be alone for a bit, take care girl."

I said: "U too."

THE END.

i'm on a rollercoaster ride that i wanna get of but it's dangerous,
I wanna be alone. Not in the emo-anti social- loner-crap way.
Jus single?.. Needa change my environment for a bit.
All i knw is that on his parade day i'm gonna make a decision.
The outcome of my decision will be affected base on wad happens today till the parade.
Bestie think i shld give it a try.
Well, no one knws who i'll end up with only god.
I can't choose my future neither can i fight it.
Will update my status here, but bestie will officially be the first to knw.

ok i needa go meet my godbrother for tuition.
Hav to reach by 8pm sharp.
I don't wanna rush in this rainy weather.

:) take care all!

Eventful events- will remember u.

2008-06-09T08:24:00.004+08:00

Today's i mean yesterday's Street Fest. was so damn AWESOME!!!!!!
Axecalibur won 1st place!
Congrats to the entire grp yea!?
Ur performance was great!?!
Scott, Rovi, Ashraf, Nicholas & Orrie~
Enjoy ur one yr of representing S'pore.

*this time i brought my camera along(fully charged).*

On a different note,
i'm missing someone dearly, i really miss u.
Thks for being so sweet & all.
U're one of a kind & it surprises me..
U were so great and understanding.
But, right now let nature take it's course.
Ok?.. I knw i shouldn't pass up an opp like this but i'm sorry,
We'll see wad is ahead yea?..
Carbon copy much??
We share so many similarities hehe. Surprise surprise!
I didn't see this coming u really surprise me.
Well it was nice meeting up.
Cheer up? :)
I knw wad u're thinkin but we're cool ryte?
Gd. At least u are understanding.
Get some rest eh?
Or u might end up tiring urself out.
Take care.
Don't worry will keep in touch :)

Alright, i'm not sleepy, not tired, super stuffed up with alot of thoughts & wondering..
Confusion man!

"The greatest happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved."

I'm starting to believe what bestie once told me a while back.
I neva thought this will ever happen to me.
Guess dont' say never ever cos u'll neva knw.
Really "kena" shock for real ppl u'll be surprise too.
All i can say is, life is so unpredictable.

`Loving it but hope i don't screw up either~

Ur friendship matters to me more than anythin right now cos' i don't want u to ever regret or ponder over "wad ifs".
DXO performance will be waitin for my VIP invite hehe.
Don't worry i won't avoid u i'm not heartless plus u're so nice to me sucha gd fren.
Enjoy ur clubbing kays? Don't worry bout me. haha.
I'm a big girl. But we may nt bump into each other on Wednesday,
i goin' Attica i think or Zouk..
Nt sure yet Lina is choosing the place.
Sorry for the disappointment. Bring ur smile wherever u go don't be sad.
U'll look old faster if u look so sad.
U're only 20 yrs old so yea enjoy ur life!
There are better girls out there.
=) Smile k? Haha! U said i make u smile so think of my silly face and smile.
Being crazy jus to make u smile hope thats somethin?..

Argh!! This annoyin tummyache is a nuisance man.
I think i ate somethin wrong.
Must be the food i ate during Street fest.
.... Ppl chill i'm jus letting ya'll read all this so ya'll knw the situation...

kk i'm done "vomitting my issues"

SingFest bonanza!!!

2008-06-06T23:57:00.000+08:00

Today met bestie at sch bus-stop,
was suppose to hav lunch together but we only ate sandwiches in the end
b'cos her bus driver drove like a tortise and mine drive like a snail. hahaha.
Mental girl.
Hee!
Class was fun got to knw some other ppl in class: fiona, prim, shareena, johnathan etc.
Lazy to type all.
Enjoyed lessons today :)
Coolness.
During break lina, bestie and i were talkin when... we saw u-knw-who!!!
Argh!! Stop the madness ppl cld we? haha.
Joking.. Well, we jus smiled said hi and all then when i left i waved gdbye and smiled =)
Yuppness! Jus being nice k ppl.
Then we went to town after sch (plaza sing):
B4 the judging commence bestie & i went shoppin for fun but again bought things thks to the crazy woman haha bought a bottom and a top!
We saw the whole battle.
Was awesome man!
Scott's band was so cool!
Totally stoked!!!
Another friend's band crossbreads also got into top 5!
Met alot of ppl frm IJ dere..
was nice tho'
No contact frm the bum today weirdy day.
Bf having POP 13th June 08'
I'm goin' under Paul's name cos' his family too big ready haha!!
Meeting rafe & kang wei at guard hse
cos' i'll be rushing frm sch haha..cab fare gonna explode balls!?!?!
Brrr.. cold..freezy.. oh well, sleepy me.. lazy to type.. will update further up.

Rainy brainy day~

2008-06-05T20:34:00.005+08:00

Guess wad jus as i was bout to start bloggin,
my hp rang it was bf (Shah)!..
Well we talked for 3 mins he said he's gonna call bk and he jus did for another 3 mins he talked,
then he hung up and called bk again and we talked for another 10 mins 24 seconds.
Total time: 16 mins 24 seconds.
he asked are we ok? I replied sayin, yea.
He asked how's sch and all but i neva mention much to him,
jus told him bout the modules, the rough timing of sch, the system, the teachers,
didn't tell him too detailed being cautious.
His POP is one day before his b'day.
lucky guy. gd for him tho'
He can chill on his b'day!
He wants presents may not buy.
Budget hee!
See how first.
this weekend he kena confinement on Saturday cos' he neva bring his 11b into camp!
Deng beng knw!
He only booking out Sunday morning booking in that very same Sunday nyte!
Following week his b'day he'll be busy but he said he wants to meet that Sunday so anythin.
Well, today had Accounting & Finance!
Was a killa before break after the break i could grasp the whole lesson.
During break, bump into u-knw-who again!!!
he said hi and smiled and asked if i was having break hmm..
David said it's too much of a coincidence everyday oh well i don't knw don't ask me.
I'm clueless bout this issue.
Well, after sch Danial asked for my number so did Gwyn,
we were all 4 suppose to hang out but lina had packing to do,
Gwyn had only till 7plus to hang ard and Danial said he'd rather go out than jus slack.
So in the end only we 3 went to town to do our pile and i mean piile of homework together,
reached home at 8pm. Gwyn is good at accounts he helped alot.
Tmr is CS!!!! :)
Looking forward to it!?
Hehehehehe!
I've completed my homework now on the line with the old foggy bum.
He called. He's another big mouth when he talks bout u-knw-who.
Tired actually. I think i'll sleep real soon once we talk finish.
Yupp. Tmr meeting bestie for lunch goin' sch together.
After sch i think i goin' out not sure yet, but i knw i goin' Singfest tmr to support Scott's grp! >>Axecalibur<<
I miss my bro! =) Was chatting online with him last nyte!
He wants to see me so cool timing to meet-up! Woohoo!!??!!
Time to hit the sack ppl.

*_I'm better off without this drama_*
"Jus Watch & Learn"

Sucha chill out! Love it!

2008-06-04T23:40:00.002+08:00

Gonna slp soon,
jus dropping by to update.
today sch was awesome man!! =)
Haha! Loving class so far.
We'll see in time to come if ppl in class are really that nice.
Hee!
Today during break time, i was sitting below my class block with Lina then guess who appeared outta no where?..
U-knw-who. weird again bump into him,
he said "eh? hi! Wad u doin here?"
I answered "having break now, u neva attend lesson?"
He said " now goin to class"
I said "ok, bye"
He said " bye"
Freaky much??
Bestie said fated see la she open her mouth today i really bump into him under my class block so random.
I didn't expect to see him cos' it's not the place whr he's usually at.
Oh well, class was so COOL i really like it in CS.
My lecturer called my name alot of times cos' she remember me frm monday "the girl who wants to be called Amelia"
haha. well, when she call ppl whole class turns to see who it is so imagine she called my name 5 times today!?
Awkward kay!
Wahaha!
All her games were fun i tell u.
The one sittin in front of me talk alot to me today!
Ahha!
I knw Lina & i wondering, "Y sia?"
Haha!
Made 2 new frens today.. surprise surprise.

After sch was suppose to go home but,
last min, Lina invited me to her 2nd home cos'
she and her bf moving out the govt. bought the land knw so sad i tell u if u see the condo it's FABULOUS man!!!!

Only 20 over units haven't move out yet the rest move out ready so very "ulu"
she lend me swimming wear (bikini) and shorts
she pulled me for a swim was so cool whole darn pool to ourselves "macham" we super rich sei!
Hahahaha!?
Then had drinking session
i wanted to "kapo" some bottles got like ard 12 bottles of liquor & 8 bottles of wine & champagne!..
I love her place and her bottles was tellin her wanted to marry the liquor hehe.
Crazy man we drank alot sucha mini-drinking party but was so fun!

J_E_A_L_O_U_S
of her hse, her bottles, her condo facilities!
So wasted she moving out this Saturday!
Her condo i repeat CoNdO, is so near sch 4 stops away!!!!

She has a LV handbag (original) her bf buy for her i saw
so style purple colour!!!!!!!
okok i'm crazy today so excuse me pls.

Another update, the bum is currently msging me on my hp
he said he wants to talk over the phone but expensive
he's callin me tmr cos' he'll be pulling into port- smelly ship

Miss his naggy ways old foggy is gonna invade S'pore tmr
be on red alert ha!

Tmr POA argh!! Don't wanna go i scared i'll drown in confusion.

Ryte, i gonna go Zzz.. slp.. once the bum finish msgin me.
Buahahahaha!?! :)

Ok eyes getting lazy ready.

-love me FOR me!

jus a quote that truly makes sense..

2008-06-04T11:22:00.000+08:00

"I wanted a perfect ending.
Now I've learned, the hard way,
that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change,
taking the moment and making the best of it,
without knowing what's going to happen next.
Delicious ambiguity".

Shoes is the NEW accessories!

2008-06-03T23:27:00.003+08:00

I'm back frm town.
Hehe. A lil' evil grin is forming on my face.
Ok, let's start with sch first,
Left home at bout 12.30pm.
Reach sch ard 1.15pm.
The flu sorta vanished jus before i left for sch.
My mind is playin tricks on me again.
Wad a mental blockage!
Lesson today was weird.
My teacher reminds me of smurfs cos' he walks, talk & act like one.. eh i not bad
other ppl in my class they calling him don't knw wad all..
The Maths didn't kill me but it drained me.
We learn bout accounting the formula and all.
Then we learnt bout Debit & Credit and other stuff.
Our lecturer said wad we learnt in that 3 hrs
were equivalent to bout 3 months in a govt sch.
My brains and everyone elses were ozzing out of our heads
could see it on their faces,
He was teaching at bullet speed.
I worried halfway thru' his module we might suffer..
Cos' now still can grasp the concept when it's more
in depth it may create chaos and alter interests within the students.
Crossing my fingers so don't want negative vibe.
After sch, decided to go home straight.
Due to the fact that i had 4 different assignments
to complete as homework hehe.
Don't wanna slack in this course in 1 month having exams ready no point ruining it. Rather do well.
But the twist here is, i was in the bus on the way home,
talkin to bestie over the phone when mummy msg me.
She wanted to meet for dinner and
go to the BLING-bling shop (HE & SHE)..
We ate dinner first actually more like,
she ate while i did my homework haha.
I ate before she arrived.
After she ate, we walk-walk in shaw hse...
She saw some shirts so i told her i'll jus browse at TopShop since it's next door.
So yea was only doing a look see kinda thingy.
But mummy came and said to me y not try it?
So i was like ok.. hmm.. but i thought she'll get it another day end up she bought me a TopShop top -i'm thankful
Hee! Lalalala..
Went to far east after that---->
She jus loved the chain thats her purpose for goin to bling shop but she ended up finding
a pendant she fancy.
Since its a 3 for $10 sale she looked around..
I had to jus so had to say i got my bling ring
and mummy went to check it out she ended up gettin
my exact ring but two pieces to make it look like
the normal thickness of a regular ring.
Mummy said regular ring in white gold don't hav this design u gotta customize it which will burn a deep hole in ur wallet.
Thats y she bought cos' look so nice and it's so much cheaper than if u were to purchase at a goldsmith shop.
I don't blame her accessories can make or break an outfit!..
Then we jus window shop for a bit and mummy wanted
a sandle sorta flats like two-in-one (nt sure how to describe)
We scouted like all the shoe shops.
In the process mummy saw a palm shoe that was on sale
and since she wanted to get me one a while bk she bought
it $19.90 knw O.P-> $29.90
Then she say this super cool yet elegant and sweet but classic open toe shoe which she so wanted me to try
being honest here,
i wasn't comfy with the design at 1st look cos' not use to it
But i still took a shot and it was nice!..
2nd look liked it!
$9.90 kay ppl cheapo (as bestie wld say it) O.P->$23.90
U gotta love a sale especially with the things i'm gettin hehe...
*ShOeS is the NEW accessories*
My book also gave way mummy helpin bestie and me
get the books binded properly...
OK folks its past midnight this crazy patient has to slp
tmr sch at 2pm sharp.
It's CS tmr lookin forward to Pam's class!!!
Will update when time permits me to do so.

Legend:
CS- Communicatin Skills.
NBT- Not Business Transaction.
(learn in class)

Stuffy weather made me unwell =(

2008-06-03T08:18:00.003+08:00

Morning ppl,
I sorta jus woke up.. I knw it's super early.
Having a stuffy nose jus fell sick over night.. argh!
Unbearable runny nose, fever and headache.
Spoiler man!..
Can u believe it?
i'm wearing a huge jacket just to keep me warm,
only my fan is on at number one stupid weather.
Oh well, not gonna ruin today.
Kinda lookin forward to sch, so far my class seem nice.
Made a few new friends didn't expect to knw ppl so fast.
Hehe. Cool ppl so far. Hoping today goes well?..
Bestie no sch today only meeting her on friday.
I meeting Lina in sch then goin' class together..
Yesterday i so wanted to update bout things but,
was totally worn out came home talk to mummy and went to bed straight. knock out knw.
Gosh! Must hav been too hyper thru' the day.. haha!
Talkin bout bestie, we met after sch went to town..
Was suppose to jus window shop and hav dinner
then head home but.... haha.. bestie is one evil convincing
promoter! Wahahaha!

This is the WoNdErFuL sToRy:

See she jus brought me to Levis to see the jeans
cos' now GSS,
then cos' she use to work under Levis,
she recommend which would suit me best then she ask me to try for fun, which i did..
Liked it alot then she was telling me how it's not easy to get the size cos' sale usually very fast disappear which is kinda true..
Hee! You can see whr i'm goin' with this eh?..
Story short, i bought the jeans and her ex- colleague did alterations (1hr) for me hehe.
Got a $15 voucher thks to bestie! Damn lucky!
In the meantime, we had dinner was talkin bout alot and i mean really aLoT of things.. we looked for her vintage belt,
found it after walkin in far east she bought it.
Went to this accessories shop in far east they had this
sale any 3 items for $10 cool ryte? Haha.. i knw.
The range of items were cool rings (bling-bling),
Chains with pendants (wide range),
Bracelets (super fancy)..
There was alot to choose frm for real!
We both bought the exact same necklace which bestie chose
it's totally awesome man!
If we were to wear it to sch together ppl think we twins or somethin hehe.. no la jus cool tho'
also got a bling ring was telling bestie
i'm now married to myself! Crazy much?..
:) After we left that shop our eyes were hurting frm
excessive bling exposure haha!
Mental seriously.
Had loads of fun catching up.
I'm madly in LoVe with my Levis jeans!!!
I finally own Levis jeans.. u gotta sooo love labels!?..
Satisfaction guarantee!?!
ok.. hold up, that sounded a lil' wrong ahha...
This madness has gotta so stop!
Too addicted to shoppin..
Good news is i sorta tax daddy,
his wife willing to get my leggings for me =)
original price $18-$19 now $8!!!!
So it's way cheaper and she wanna get for me
i'm cool with it.. hehe..
free knw sucha gd deal to waste away.
Came home around 9.30pm.
Tired walk all the time with my sch books it was a killa!
Slept by 11pm.
Mummy jealous of my jeans haha.. funny knw she gonna save up for her own also..
See la all bestie fault make us love levis.
Hmm.. kk my eyes are freaking lazy now using my specs to blog being sick is draining..
I wanna enjoy sch today stupid flu haha..
We'll see how it turns out.
We saw u-knw-who yesterday and bestie says its fated?..
Haha.. She say only when i around then she sees..
weird ryte? Yea now we knw i'm having weird encounters ~
The things that happened in sch freaked me out a lil'
nt use to it can't blame me.. innocent kay.
Alright enough typing gonna go rest for a bit..
Needa get ready for sch real soon.
Oh great i jus realised, having accounting & finance today hope the maths don't kill me -

"Standing alone with no direction. How did i fall so far behind?
Why am I searching for perfection? Knowin it's somethin i won't find"

Whenever i think it's over u surprise me and get better?.. Y?..

2008-06-01T17:48:00.002+08:00

Today, met Jean to collect the necklace i bought from her online shop.

She gave me a discount.

Wasn't expecting it.

20% off!

So cool!...

:) Uber bored now jus watching gilmore girls and updating my accounts.

Pack my shoulder bag for sch with file and all.

Loving to love the things i have.

Know something, he (bf) called 12.53pm.

Weird but he did call.

He was asking whr i'm at told him i was at home.

He was at Compass at that point in time

with his brother and his bro gf.

His uncle's sister jus passed away two weeks ago when,

he was at tekong when it happened.

Cos' he booked out yesterday at 8pm,

he's goin' to give his condolence today so he said couldn't meet.

I jus kept quiet. I jus told him i'll pray for her soul.

He's booking into camp at 8pm today,

which is one an a half hours away..

Sigh. Nothin much to say jus letting it be too drained out.

As for the bum, he left on Wednesday in his ship,

not heard from him since miss his naggy lectures.. hmm..

He said he'll e-mail so i'll jus keep a look-out.

Tmr, sch starts having the "jitters" hope my class has some nice ppl

Worried, cos' needa get along for projects.

Hopefully lady luck is on my side tmr?..

i'm gonna wake up at 9.30am.

Meeting bestie in the bus to hav lunch at sch together.

We're studyin at the same time for tmr only.

Goin' for dinner with bestie at town maybe see some clothes?..

Not sure yet. Haha. bored as hell now.

Gonna drink my wanton soup now. hehe.

Anyways, gonna go watch tv now.

Gonna slp by 10.30pm latest.

Needa rest well.

Special Moments~

2008-06-01T01:20:00.002+08:00

We use to be in paradise,
Not until I realise,
That things weren't working out quite right.

From the moment i saw you,
I jus felt so into you,
The days we spent together,
Are moments that will last forever.

For all that we have been through,
I wanna say "Thank You",
I still do love you,
Even though you think it ain't true.

True love can never be compromised,
And true love never dies.

But if destiny comes in the way,
Don't you cry cos' i've something to say,
It may hurt in your heart but it'll bleed in my soul.
Cos' i'm being sincere not being cold.

From me to you i give this poem out of sincerity,
I'm being honest hope it don't cost for eternity.

It's what i see between the lines thats keeping my sanity.
The matter at hand is not my credibility.
Stretch your horizon from within.
I wanna be loved & appreciated like you use to in the past, thats what i'm seeking.
Within this time capsule i've lost all hope through anxiety.
For all you've said has not been seen in reality.

Jus daily activities to spare.

2008-05-31T06:39:00.002+08:00

Watched- Sex And The City;
Caught a late movie this time,
11.25pm. hmm.. jus went to take my mind off everythin around me.
Still didn't help much.
I tried tho' not to spoil the day.
Sch is starting this coming Monday,
kinda fast come to think bout it..
No contact until now so i shall say this,
"It's not like you care enough so we shall end it here"
I'm not so evil i'll be telling him this if i ever hear frm him any day soon.
I've enough of ppl telling lies,
using me, draining me, playin me, pretending to me!
I knw who has been there for me.
I'm not blind.
I knw who really cares and worries bout my well-being.
I knw the friends who hav contacted me recently
to take care of me.
And still are taking care of me.
Thks for the support.
And to the rest who hav painted a front GET LOST!?
All this has been too much to handle
so i truly salute those who were there.
kk i dun hav much to update so
i jus wanna say for the record i need a break~
i'm doing this to prevent things,
to pull myself out of everyone's life,
wanna be alone for now cos' i'm losing trust for alot of ppl,
don't wanna hang to death like a fool,
and if we r
fated thats a whole different issue in the future.
I'll neva hate u(bf) i jus can't even tho' i've tried.
i can't stay mad at u for long even when u hurt me
i think i really do love u but i hav to let go for now.
Take care.

Something deep within my soul is bleeding..

2008-05-30T03:09:00.004+08:00

I've nothin to write or say, i wrote this poem a few minutes ago
on Microsoft Word.
I think wads written below says it all guess
i'm empty now.
Being in denial has caught up with me.
Sorry all been strip of my dignity.
Goodbye.

In this stand still moment of time,
I’ve realised every given sign,
Test against time we tried to be fine.

Momentarily I feel like you’ve done me enough harm,
Foul play, crime or a lie u made it seem like a guy,
A guy who painted something with me in time,
In a moment of folly destroyed my dearest rhymes.

Rhymes I believed to be true love,
I thought without you I’d be dew,
So mere and small to the world above me,
But now I have to regret thee.

I feel like a joke you’ve played me,
In vain I’ve tried to help but jus maybe,
Our feelings were true still you forsake what lies in the truth,
Cause we’re jus not meant to be.

Thanks for the rollercoaster ride,
You brought me along on something I thought was right,
Now I’ve learnt it’s time to move on cause this story is so wrong,
The person I once knew has vanished from my favourite song.

Hurting as it may honestly be inside,
You’ll always have me by your side,
The flame inside me will always be alive,
Cause the dream will always be in my heart of being your wife.

Strip me of all the agony and growing pains we’ve battled,
You’ll see my skeleton bony and brittle,
But the heartbeat within still lives forever,
Though flaws may have ruined what-could-have-been,
I try to pull away from my feelings but I Love You still that’s what it seems.

“You’re the greatest and happiest thing that came into my life, I’m sorry we never made it but we have our memories we built together to remember though I’m hurting inside and it’s not showing you’re my true love till the end. "

Written by: Amelia Allais ©.

Take A Bow By Rihanna. (so true!)

2008-05-29T21:19:00.002+08:00

Oh, how bout a round of applause?
Yeah
Standin ovation
Woah oh oh yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

(Verse)
You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You’re so ugly when you cry
Please!
Just cut it out
And don’t tell me you’re sorry
cause you’re not
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught

(Chorus)
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now its time to go
Curtains finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now
Go on and take a bow

(Verse)
Grab your clothes and get gone
(Ya better hurry up)
Before the sprinklers come on
Talkin’ bout girl I love you you’re the one
this just looks like a re-run
Please
What else is on?
And don’t tell me you’re sorry
cause you’re not
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught

(Chorus)
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now its time to go
Curtains finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now
Go on and take a bow

(Bridge)
And the award for
the best lie goes to you
For makin’ me believe that you
could be faithful to me
lets hear your speech
How bout a round of applause
A standing ovation

(Chorus)
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now its time to go
Curtains finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now
Go on and take a bow
But it’s over now….

"It's very true and i'm starting to feel it's similar to this"
"No effort is all i see"
"U're nt even explaining or letting go"

So so so true!!!!

2008-05-29T20:41:00.001+08:00

"A relationship is like a rose, How long it lasts, no one knows; Love can erase an awful past, Love can be yours, you'll see at last; To feel that love, it makes you sigh, To have it leave, you'd rather die; You hope you've found that special rose, 'Cause you love and care for the one you chose."

*IF ONLY THINGS WERE NEVA RUINED*

Wad is up with the games u play??..

2008-05-29T01:01:00.004+08:00

Today watched Narnia Prince Caspian!..
Was awesome!!
Loved it. Superficial tho' but my godbro (Christopher)
and (Mike) were soo wanting to catch it.
I didn't ruin it for them. hehe.
Godma and i had fun catching up with life and events.
Had dinner at her place was nice.
The old fogey bum has left S'pore already,
he's travelling to pakistan den dubai den saudi den to pakistan again den bk to s'pore.
Sad case he hates it in there. oh well..
As for Mr BF he so hasn't called yet not only that,
he was on the line with his family then after that he put dwn and off his phone!?
He still had 5 mins knw?! Freaking too much ready..
Tuesday suppose to call neva call,
today i happen to dial his number and he engaged and neva returned the call.
Wad u want me to do?
Hang myself till u decide to make up ur mind??..
Argh!!! bothered much?
Don't say i'm wadever cos' look at how u're handling everythin k!
Butt out seriously it's gettin way over ur head.
I've had it with ppl who lie to me!!!!!!!!!

I'm fucking ANGRY!!!!
Wadever bk to u i'll say k!...

Bugged out-*

Nothin really..

2008-05-28T02:45:00.002+08:00

Sleepy? Nope, not even a yawn till now.
It's crazy really. I think i'm uber weird or somethin?..
Don't knw even that bum said so.
he's bk in S'pore pulled into port 4 hrs ago but when he entered s'pore waters, he msg me.
Mental guy.. haha!
Could hear the darn loud radio cos' he was in front of it.
They were pulling into a berth so needed ground communication.
Control was slow to respond.
Ha! I sound like some damn expert like that but i'm not.
Wahaha! Fool ya'll didn't i? Hmm..
I'm tryin my bestest to get things btw mich & david to be ok.
Talked to mich in the late afternoon so yupp.
Don't like seeing frens fall out like that.
C'mon guys ya'll r more mature than that kays?..
:) Cheerful me thats my mood today or..
at least thats wad mummy said.. hehe..
She asked wads goin' on in my life that made me this happy..
I gav her some dumb answer b'coz,
honestly, i don't knw the real reason.
Tried to get an answer been thinking but nothin is lightin up.
Darn it! Man don't tell me i'm turning too insane to figure out myself???
Argh!! Grouchy seriously!
Wad is up with me? Even i don't hav a damn clue.
Crazy amy now i knw y ppl gav me that nickname..
Sigh! Loving my life now but i sooo wanna knw wads the factor making me so happy..
Wad the fuck man lookin at my situation,
the irony of my mood i'll say!..
.... Mayb i might or i'll correct myself i suspect the reason..
Not sure also.. gonna observe and double check b4 i blog this out yea?..
FAB-U-LOUS is the wOrD to say the least..
Gonna catch a movie tmr.
Hehe! Not $$ rich but ppl payin for me so y not?..
Sinful pleasures of life.. hmm.. ahha!
See thinkin wrongly again!!
My dear godmother and I are goin' out so i ought to slap ur brains out eh? Lalalalalalalala...
She's bk frm her trip next wk sch startin so jus an outing b4 my beloved sickening longest weirdest freedom holidays r ova!?!
Uhum!
Kk on a serious and suttle mood i wanna say this,
for the record, i don't like keepin this charade and i rather be upfront towards this issue so pls think bout it.
I'm happy being myself i'm not gonna suppress it for them no more.
Alryte, time to off my laptop b4 i get busted for running the bill up sky high.
=) take care all.

*For destiny is in the hands of the beholder not within this place or ppl that surrounds us.

Wads deep within the meaning of love.

2008-05-28T01:00:00.002+08:00

" The success of love is in the loving- it is not in the result of loving. Of course it is natural in love to want the best for the other person, but whether it turns out that way or not does not determine the value of what we have done".

Because each thing we've contributed through the time adds up to the end result we see at the end.
It's the effort that counts.

News, news more news..

2008-05-27T00:31:00.004+08:00

Some news to share,
firstly,
bf and i talked today..
his mum was on the other line but he talk for a bit.
He jus returned to camp today frm tekong (field camp)
He talked really nicely to me.
Wished me for our anniversary,
he said, "I Love You", to me,
he apologized cos' we couldn't talk much.
Well, he mentioned that he will call me tmr.
Hopefully, if he calls tmr i'll get to tell him some stuff.
Will be happy if he calls not gonna deny it.
It's really super tough..
Signs don't look gd either.
Anyways, we'll see.. i'll update bout it tmr or somethin..
Went training today:
1. Ran at the stadium 8 rounds! I jus pushed myself.
2. Did a gd workout at the gym for solid 3hrs plus :)
3. Lost 400 calories nt counting the stadium run..
i'm happy bout it, feel i've acheived somethin for myself.
Came home around 10.45pm.
Was on the phone with bestie today afternoon.
She msg me sayin she screwed up her test today so i called her bk to see wad was up.
She said wadever the lecturer taught didn't come out in the paper.
hopefully i don't hav to go thru' that in my class...?..
she was sittin next to u-knw-who..
I think she has bionic nose or somethin cos'
she said he smelled really nice. (literally)
Haha. She is one crazy woman!..
She still can slp in class knw.
Hehe.
Wanted to meet her today after sch but she was gonna meet Val so yea..
Mayb next time..
Body is super worn out but not sleepy yet.
Will do my best to slp early.
Tmr so gotta do up my house no plans for any outings yet.
I cancelled one appointment tho' to go for a sauna & jacuzzi session with lyns.
Needa do my house up so yea.
Alryte, i'm gonna go do some stuff now.

Well wishes to us both may nature take it's course upon us

2008-05-25T21:26:00.000+08:00

Happy 1yr 9mths Anniversary!
That is like 21 months.. Super darn long..
I treasure each and every memory we created these months together.
No matter wad jus wanna say thank u.
Take care. And i'll always be there for u no matter wad the outcome of our relationship is.
Thats a promise i'm willing to keep to.

Countdown to first Semester..begins..

2008-05-25T03:32:00.003+08:00

Slept like a Zzz.. lazy ass for nearly 12 hours!
I actually slept early for once!
haha..
Uber weird freakish day,
went for mass saw Rebekah (frm sec sch)
she looks damn different now she looks gorgeous.. which is cool.
during sign of peace jus smiled at her.
she's a nice person.
Went to parkway parade bought a new jacket-top..
i soo so love it!
ate some super delicious hongkong food.
was suppose to buy cupcake frm famous amos but......
sad thing was that the queue was darn long.
Some foreign guy bought alot and i mean ALOT of stuff frm there that
the cashier took so long to serve him.
Left in a hurry needed to get some stuff for home so i jus went off.
Will be gettin my loveable cupcakes soon =)
In the mail today my timetable arrived..
Was sorta lookin forward to it for quite a while,
honestly 90% of the time my tutorials start in the afternoon which is gd but SATURDAYS hav tutorials & some stupid course to attend!!
Wads worse is that one of the Saturday i hav full day course till 4pm!
Plus the other Satuday i hav lectures frm 2pm-5pm!?
*if bf wanna meet it's gonna so clash big time!!!
Annoyin indeed!?
Even david pity me for having saturdays busy.. argh!!!
Talkin bout him, he actually outta nowhere msg me on my hp at 12 midnight to ask how's things and all..
We msg for quite a while.. he's one naggy grandfather i'll say..
Ppl shld so hear how he gives advice and then they'll get me.
He's in thailand now can u imagine this crazy bum actually contacted me?.. Wahaha!?!
I find it surprising seriously didn't expect anythin cos' he said b4
he left that we'll keep in touch via email only.
Oh well, he's a gd bro.
Always been there and always will be thats the great thing bout this bum. Hehe..
He's gonna pull into port this coming Wednesday for a few hours.
He said will contact soon so yea. Will update bout that when i hear frm him.
Mental boy he's enjoyin the small smelly ship he's in.. haha!
Ok reversing bk to my main whining issue----->>>>
The stupid course all business students MUST attend
freaking no escape man!
Wish somethin gets screwed in the system that they might hav to change the schedule or somethin..
Doubt it tho'
Why man?...
:(
After 1& 1/2 months i'll be already sitting for exams!!!
Gonna hav to mug like a mad girl!
So wanna pass this and get both my certificates.
Nothin is gonna bug me cos' if ppl get in my way i'm jus gonna ignore
this is my future i so wanna do this for myself for once!
C'mon i'm finally seeing the picture i knw wad matters now.
Hmm... Gonna slp now..
Zzz... tired..

Daily activities are so over-rated!

2008-05-23T03:47:00.005+08:00

Long day.. today went by so so slow.

I think i kept lookin at the time every 5 mins or so.

Horrible feelin jus waitin for time to pass by.

Ok updates:

1. Day b4 yesterday, did my nails. So loving it still! :)

2. Day b4 yesterday, watched movie @ Habourfront; Drilbit Taylor

nice comedy.

3. Day b4 yesterday, bought some new accessories!

Been sorta shoppin lately but no clothes involved yet.

That day went home super late reach bk before 4am.

4. Yesterday, training.. training..training.. the stadium was closed for a football match so was stuck at the gym frm 5.30pm till 8.42pm.

Now i got "khaki" to train with so yea y not?

Pespire like crazy was dripping in it..

Lost 600 calories in total.

Lyns lost 700 + calories.

Was a great workout but now i'm dyin.. seriously nt cool having the "after effects" of workin out.

Suffering now today with muscle pull everywhr.. painful i'll say.

5. Bump into Christina at the mall after training so long since i saw her she thinks i'm nuts for goin' to the gym. haha. weird thing is she said i'm so different frm last time.. she finds me happier.. oh well.. i don't knw?..

6. Today, missed the match between Man U & Chelsea..

Heard it was one hella game they played.. jealous much?

Daddy forgot to call me over.. don't hav the sports channel here :(

results were: Man U 6 Chelsea 5 (after penalty shots) match score was a 1-1 so yea.

7. I sooo freaking wanna start school dyin here.. i knw i'm mental david said i'm the weirdest person he knws cos' i wanna go bk to sch hee!

8. Today, david went bk onboard he left for thailand at 3plus..

he'll be permanently bk in Sep 08'

9. Tmr, got tons of stuff to handle my card haven't even done yet.

forgetful me..

10. Got family dinner tmr & outing... will update bout it after tmr.

11. Is being insane and hyper a crime? i doubt it eh?

Hmm.. nothin much the rest i'll post tmr or somethin..

*gotta rest up =)

What kinda girl i truly am::

2008-05-20T12:36:00.004+08:00

I took this test to see wad kinda girl i am cos' i wanted to see if it's accurate or full of crap?..
Well, it actually makes sense to me.. here is the results:

You are: The Lovable Eyes:

She is Spontaneous, Smooth, and Loving.
She is what most guys want to find, date, and marry.
That simple.
She’s adorable, cute, sexy, innocent, easy-going, friendly, and fun to be around.
Pretty much the perfect companion.
She’s delicate and needs to be handled with loving hands, and there won’t be any shortage of guys willing to handle her.
In a relationship, there is only one rule with the Lovable Eyes-
Don’t Fuck Up. That’s it. Don’t cheat on her, don’t lie to her, don’t mistreat or abuse her, and she will be yours for a lifetime.

Man!? How true it is seriously.. so if bf ever reads this then maybe he'll knw wad i really am deep down inside.
Anyway talkin bout him he is having field camp till sunday at tekong!! Argh?!
Then 6 days confinement back at his bedok camp then only he can book out so yea.
Will only be able to update bout him 2 weeks frm now..
By then i've already started sch.
Oh goodness we're missing out on each other's life alot.
Annoyin much?
ha! life ain't that fair i must say.
ok gonna go do stuff now goin out soon.
Stupid time passing so darn slow..
kk goin now__--- amelia loves to be loved too!

-Too much too little and neva enough-

2008-05-19T00:30:00.005+08:00

Woke up at 1pm today, went to town at around 3plus.

Watched Wad Happens In Vegas!

Nice movie to see it's funny yet it has real meaning in the show.

"I'd rather do NOTHING and be happy than do SOMETHING i hate!"

Sucha freaking true philosophy in the show..

Deep eh?

Haha!

Did alot of window shoppin only bought a few stuff.

But i saw alot of cheap stuff thats damn nice.. so needa save up..

Needa go get em' clothes asap.

Sound like some don't knw what man!

Hey girl, thks for the fun today!

Crazy day hehe..

Today went in the blink of an eye.

Super HOT damn weather!!!

It's annoying!?

Can't enjoyin being outside until after 6pm.

The phrase is.. life's too darn short to be missing out on happiness!

=) Wahahahahahaha!!

Gosh! Worn out ready.

Zzz.. Might actually sleep early tonight..

Laughter is the best medicine to turn a day dowside up.

Love the photos today so nice!

After sooooo freaking long now finally hav some nice photos to keep again.

Tmr is gonna be boring... no plans yet.. lalalala..

i will be goin now, will update soon..

If the heart is always hurting can u ever find true love?

2008-05-18T04:26:00.002+08:00

Today, met bf after his dental around 11.50am.

He had to go off at 1pm so we had limited time.

We jus sat and caught up on things and life,

he called my mummy to talk to her..

Sorta didn't see that coming cos' it was outta nowhere kinda thing.

Mummy told him to take care n all they talked for more then 5 mins gosh! I was shock!

Haha..

We jus spend quality time talkin till he had to go but when he had to go,

he said, "I'm sorry seriously i knw the timing and all i feel bad bout it hope u understand?,"

Which i do. I'm not so darn evil. He's my baby no matter wad happens and he'll always hav a soft spot in my heart but not everyone will understand.

He said that to me also when we were talkin.. hehe..

So sweet! happy me happy times..

But nothing last forever.

Tmr goin to see Wad happen in Vegas!

Let's jus hope nothin stupid spoils my happy plans tmr or i'll be pissed!?

Anyway today had a bad experience!

Not gonna elaborate tho'

Okey dokey i'm gonna slp now..

Different once more

2008-05-17T00:05:00.002+08:00

Zzz.. hey ppl..
Suppose to go see movie today but postpone to Sunday.
Had family dinner today.
Talked to bf at 10pm.
He said at that time he jus booked out.
We were msgin, he said tmr he has dental at 11am.
He said after 1pm he'll be busy...
We're meetin after his dental for 1hr only.
Not gonna say anythin.
He said he's not free so i not gonna mention bout the outing..
If he's really busy he won't be able to come so we'll see wad he reacts to.
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in ur heart is the only way for destiny. I'll miss ur love in every way but true love never dies.
Will be out tmr most of the time so hopefully i can unwind..
Zzz.. Needa force myself to slp early to meet him tmr.
Gosh!
Tough life man!
"If time were at my fingertips i'd rewind and replay those memories" --my thought on things.
Don't take things for granted in life if u don't cherish wad u hav it'll be taken away permanently.
Ok enough preaching~
Nyte.

Two apples in a tree top branch-

2008-05-15T18:01:00.002+08:00

Jus now bf called at 4.42pm.
Talked for abt 3 mins 4 sec, he said this three days training ended late.
I think he was having a break on somethin then he called me.
He said that day his brother so he talked like that..
He said, "If you love someone u don't hav to miss them."
That sounds a lil' off eh?
Well, let him be if he comes ard then gd if he doesn't den nvm.
today the weather so dark & gloomy..
BoRiNg much?..
Haha.. Tmr goin' to watch Wad Happens In Vegas!
Hell yea i can't wait for it!?
Goin to town can't wait gonna hav many photo op moments.
Hehe! Say cheese pls?
~Speak up, think aloud, do wadever makes u happy!

when u look me in the eyes can u say tell me that u love me?

2008-05-15T04:29:00.003+08:00

Today woke up and it was raining cats & dogs,

Thanks to the weather i actually fell asleep n had adequate rest.

Imagine, i couldn't slp all nyte knw.

Insomnia i guess?.. Not sure.

So fustrating man!

Needa try to get my body clock back to normal mode asap.

No call frm him 3rd day ready..

Nothin much to say bout this issue.

Cos' it's jus not gonna make a darn difference if he even cares

which looks like a negative answer now.

Safe to say i've been busy which is gd.

Don't wanna ponder no more if i ain't worth even a sec of ur time y shld i let my heart think bout u that much..

Once bitten twice shy...

Lookin like the doomsday of ur era or somethin.

No grudges but u shld grow up!

No one will wait like this especially when u don't keep in contact.

U're so fugly inside.. it's jus a phrase if u wanna take it to heart go ahead.

All i'll say bk to u is i gav u many chances but u blew it!

ZZZ...

Had dinner at daddy's house today talked alot..

>>literally!?

Had buckets of fun tho'

Ended up leaving daddy's place only after 12 midnight.

Wahahahahaha!?

Hehe!

Being a lil' mental happy ain't gonna hurt no one.

Ok i'm goin now..

U're still in my <3>
>nice drama i see ryte thru' it.

Not that kinda girl<<

2008-05-14T01:30:00.003+08:00

I'm now like on the line with Lyns, we're rattling on bout stuff..
Jus talked to bestie online,
Yesterday nyte i sms her but she say she neva receive.
Weird eh? Don't knw?..
I think she super tired. It's cool!
Jus now went for dinner with lyns went to her shop whr she's workin at..
Vintage stuff so unique man!?
Haha!!
Had fun over there, tmr gonna go training at 3 plus..
Can't wait. So wanna train properly so yea.
Coolness. Wadeva that means..
For some weird reason ppl hav been callin me out kinda often this few days man totally stoked!
Suddenly ppl all popping outta nowhere man!
Lalalalala...
Miss this feeling of enjoyment..
So nice to hav a different field of things.
Alryte man gtg now needa slp early got training tmr! =)
Love to ppl who respect me for who i truly m!
Thks ya'll!! Hee!

Totally awesome!?!

2008-05-13T00:10:00.006+08:00

Today, woke up around 3 plus bestie called me when she was at sch. She had her break damn late around 3.3opm but the gd
thing bout it was when she went back to class she only had half an hour of lesson then she end sch for the day.
Damn lucky!
Phew! She was talkin bout her class she made some new chinese friends the noisy ppl..
Hee!
No contact yet i dropped a msg on ur phone.
Hopefully u read it n respond to it soon.
It's gettin' a lil' annoyin n outta hand don't u think eh?
It may hurt even after it's healed but it will all get better in time.
If we're fated then things will fall into place in the near future it's now in ur hands..
We're all watchin wad ya gonna do bout this.
From ur action we'll knw if u r a hypocrite like the "rest" or not..
This will show us all if u're really all talk & no action like "they" warned me bout on 2nd March.
Hmmm.. moving on..
Had 2 sms and 2 miss calls from Lyns today when i woke up.
Didn't expect to hear frm her so soon.
She asked if i was free and if i wanted to hang out?..
I told her i didn't hav plans at the moment.
She ended sch around 4 plus met at macs at 5 plus.
We decided to hang out only,
last minute when to J8 to catch speed racer!
The earliest show was at 9 plus so yup.
We walked around alot in the mall.
Was fun.
Didn't expect the day to be that cool but it was!
The movie was totally AWESOME!?!
We had tons of fun in the cinema.
Long time since we went out. haha!
Happy memories!
Thats bout it jus got home a while ago..
Tmr doin' the card thingy the rest of the day not planned out yet.
Wednesday goin' joggin wif Lyns.. hehe!
Time to workout since so bored don't wanna be a couch potatoe! Argh!
Wahahahaha!
Nighty night peeps.
Zzz...
Don't disrespect me jus cos' u hate me!?

Life's too darn short to stress up bout thngs dat dun mean a thing..

2008-05-12T02:34:00.005+08:00

I'm jus droppin by for an update..short one..

Today nothin much happened jus dont wanna bother bout ppl who dont show dat it's worth stressing on dem,

No one is perfect, no one is the best,

everyone has their strengths,

I've decided to let things be nt gonna drain myself be it for better or worse i accept wadever happens in the near future.. Supa bored as ever..

I wanna go see "What Happens In Vegas" goin this thursday haha!

Can't wait!?

Will be a cool movie to watch,

tmr nt sure wads the plan yet --- definately will go out..

Hmmm.. Tuesday goin' to do my card n hav a shopping mania! =)

So cant wait dis week is gonna be full of fun totally stoked!

Hee!

Love me or hate me i'm jus being me!

Be urself cos' at least i've been myself n i hav a backbone unlike u!!!

Better watch ur back!.. Ppl might judge ur actions..

Oh well, done doin trash talk.

Gonna watch movie now (dvd)

Alryte ppl i'm outta here.

I didn't expect this..

2008-05-09T22:44:00.002+08:00

Updates..

nothin much, was actually asleep till around 12noon

then my hp was ringin, it was mummy..

after talkin to her i realised i had miss call frm bestie..

i thought emergency case or somethin so i check my inbox,

she left me a msg.. jus that day she was jokin' bout it now it's like lookin more n more like wad she mentioned.. it' a lil' funny actually cos' bestie said she excited bout it

usually in situations like this the other person shld be happy or somethin..

but to me i won't lie i was surprise but other then that i sorta let things be..

no matter wad i believe things always work out somehow.

bestie crazy ready.. haha!

Well,

It's not making sense when i look at the whole picture.

2008-05-08T23:22:00.002+08:00

Today is so freakishly weird..
I'll spare the details..
Ironman was AWESOME!!!
Haha!! Well, bf didnt call today dunno him ready.
Mayb he flew away?..
Paul msg me today he said training is gettin tougher but he's gettin use to it so yupp.
He also had rifle training today so Alpha, Bravo & Charlie "sama-sama" exercise.
I jus saw lightening doubt i'll do anythin confirm gonna rain.
Everythin is ok jus some thoughts lingering in my head today.
Who's gonna care anyway so y bother.. argh!?

One body two minds,
That is us jus like a dime.
A potrait frm me to u,
Somethin special i love to do.
U're a blessing frm up above,
Nothin i do is ever enough.
To love n to be loved r two separate things,
Frm me to u i'll say u're a dream.
Thanks for the journey & memories,
It's somethin lingering in me.

composed by; Amelia A.
dedicated to someone special to me.

Stuffed up much lately?

2008-05-08T00:47:00.003+08:00

Looks like i'm stuck with the decision so yea..
Gonna think bout it.. Zzz..
Tmr, goin out with mich,david n all..
Needa enjoy a bit.
Bf called at 9.45pm.
Talked for 2mins 29 sec nothin much he has rifle shooting tmr.
Bf asked y i sounded a bit off i didnt tell him the truth tho' doubt i shld bother him with wad i'm thinking..
Things are gonna change very soon...

Love has no boundaries it's no crime but dont be a fool

2008-05-07T19:35:00.002+08:00

The warmth of his skin caressing mine
Our bodies slowly drifting through the endless pits of time

The passion in her kiss
And the way he touched my lips

The fire through her fingers
Still lingers

The love I feel inside
She shows me that there is nothing to hide.

What friendship REALLY means!

2008-05-06T23:32:00.003+08:00

This poem goes out to the ppl who totally rock my world & hav been there for me all this while and for ppl who need some reference to see what a true friend can be like this poem shld be of some help.. hee! =)

A Friend
Strengthens the heart
Repairs the hurt
Encourages the discovery
Enlightens the mind
Dissolves the pain
Banishes the loneliness
Understands the anxieties
Increases the joy
Deepens the spirit
Frees the soul.

To me this is the true meaning of friendship.
Ppl i knw whom i can trust n who fit into this poem r my true friends n i appreciate them for being there thru' gd or bad times thks guys!

Today bf called me at 9.55pm.
He said past 2 days his company kena punishment till late (after 10.30pm.) so couldnt call anyone..
When he went into camp had to clear his confinement (rifle stunt) so nt allowed to smoke, use phone n all
I'm cool with his explanation..
Life is to darn short to be mopping around
like a baby..
I do my bestest to be strong n leave the rest to god..
Jus tryin' to enjoy life as it comes by.
Lalalalalalala...
Haha!
Today received msg frm David he's bk in S'pore for 1 week then he'll be off again on ship..
He jus pulled into port today evening
around 6 plus.
I hope things between him n mich gets better their nice ppl..
C'mon cheer up guys =)

Alryte enough typin for now will update asap.
loads of LoVe to ppl who hav been there for me & to bf no matter what i love u so i'm a silly girl..

Emptyness is all i see inside of me.

2008-05-06T00:32:00.002+08:00

Nothin is making sense but i shld jus observe!
I m so hostile bout stuff now i'm nt evil i jus needa think too!
it's a silly thing i'll say but life is ok ryte now..
I've learned alot but i hope gd things come to those who are patient in life's everyday struggle..
I'm jus takin it as it comes, no hiding always honest frm within so we'll see wad happens when i'm str8 up honest.. cos' i aint a fool i'm humanly too. I'm being extra fair.

Harvest beyond ur reach n life will neva be as fruitful as it's suppose to be!

Nt a call since we met on Friday!?
I wanna be appreciated like the past but now ur situation stinks!
No time for wad use to be important to u so yea.

Zzz.. I'm dozing off so nyte for now.. bad headache..

Results, Administration, Good Bad & average news

2008-05-02T18:33:00.004+08:00

Results for entry exams: English 87% Maths 60%

Well, its nt such wonderful grades but u see i did my level best studyin for it tho'

Haha.. still pass so yea totally stoked bout sch in june cant wait,

it'll be a good exposure.. brain has been rusting toooo freaking long..hee!

Bored so very exremely bored..

Met bf today =) So so happy seeing him..

He was sweet n nice today talked alot had alot to discuss..

We've nt met for 3 weeks str8 so it's cool..

Mummy was happy that he was coming to see me..

We had lunch together missed that alot finally a proper meal together after ages of some ppl's nonsense..lol

Had a gr8 time won't deny it.

Bf explained everythin ready so we cool for now.

It's nice to knw bf has been tryin his level best in such a situation.. Hazel(bestie), Shalini & Esther hav been there 4 me.. Bestie has sch her bf n work to handle but she's been there too 4 me.. it's gr8 to hav ppl i can trust esp bestie cos' she understands things so ya..

Wahaha.. this mental patient gets to go out tmr n monday..

Goin' to "reki" our sch meeting bestie there after that gonna head to town to see a movie (finally!?) haha.. been ages since i've seen a show..nothin much on tv except The OC 4 so yupp.

Goody, need to shop badly to wash my brains out of some dilema crap..

Did my admin stuff 4 sch ready..
No one's free this week was rotting practically but its alryte had time to clear my things at home.
David pulled into port jus a few days bk had a chat wif him it's gd but he's been sad lately cant really mention here but hope he'll be ok asap.. he's a gd person things will work out for him so i'm nt dat worried bout it.
He'll be bk in September 08' so for now work hard eh?

His folks still giving the red light so i'll draw bk for a bit..

we'll see
bf wants me to stay but i dun wanna be the bad guy in all this mess esp since

i didnt do nothin u see sometimes when we're str8 up ppl still trip u hard so i'll jus observe first..

Well gtg now..

will update when i'm more clear bout things..

Whatever it is i still love u because it's frm my heart

2008-04-27T01:28:00.003+08:00

He's suppose to book out today he said he'll call.. i dunno wad happened but no contact frm him the whole day i dun even knw if he's outta camp or nt.
Whatever it is i'll jus wait to hear bout his side of the story.
Hope he meets tmr b4 he book-in?..
I dunno his plans i dunno if he's talked to his family like he planned??
I'm jus prayin that things turn out ok.
I'm a lil' worried.
To my baby i love u n i miss u hope to hear frm u soon.
I'll understand if u jus explain..
=(
Still waitin for a call or msg.....

So little time been mugging for exams!?

2008-04-22T01:02:00.003+08:00

He's been calling me back-to-back these few days.. hehe.. yayy me!! Haha...

He's been sweet lately =) i'm glad baby has been so nice to me n he

tries his best to call me all the time i love my teddy bear loads hee!

Missing u like a baby! Kisses to u dear!!!

Hmm.. I'm ok now tmr goin' to sit for my English & Maths exam wahahaha!

Wish me luck yea?

Been muggin like hell these few darn days.

Baby's batt is sorta low so yea, he may hav to use the phone card thingy..

Boohoo. Bored like hell hazel bought the bag which we saw at tampiness mall together lucky her. We both liked the bag she liked the brown one n i liked the black one haha.. we shopped at the atrium there was a SALE bought 4 tops gruelling hours diggin in the wagon eh?

Alryte i'm gonna slp now.

Night ppl.

LOVES!!!

I'm looking within me to find u baby

2008-04-15T18:28:00.004+08:00

Can't you tellyou've been all over me like a spell -

I know( I never wanna let you go)

Can't you seeyou've been changing the world around me

- I know

( I never wanna let you go)

If you hold me close enough

I can whisper you the words

If the distance is to farI can't do nothing, cuz

You are stuck in my heartand we can go anywhere

whatever the reason you are

so stuck in my heartlike counting a million stars

for that many reasons you are

Can't deny

since I met you that day I've been blind

- to see( Now I wanna know for real)

Inside me

I'm afraid to wake up from a dream - and see

( It never really happent to me)

If you hold me close enough

I can whisper you the words

If the distance is to far

I can't do nothing, cuz

You are stuck in my heartand we can go anywhere

whatever the reason you areso stuck in my heart

like counting a million stars

for that many reasons you are

You are......like a dream so deep inside of me

You are......the reason that I never sleep

You are......stuck in my heart

You are

Can't you tell

you've been all over me like a spell

(I will never let you go, I will never let you go no, no)Can't you seeyou've been changing the world around me

(I don't wanna let you go,

no I'll never let you go no, no)

You are stuck in my heartand we can go anywhere

whatever the reason you areso stuck in my heart

like counting a million stars

for that many reasons you are...

Horrible feeling in my heart..

2008-04-15T17:08:00.002+08:00

Na na na na...

Na na na na yeah..

You are the music in me

You know the words"Once Upon A Time"

Make you listen?

There's a reason.

When you dream there's a chance you'll find,

A little laughter or happy ever after your harmony to the melody..

It's echoing inside my head..

A single voice (Single voice)...

Above the noise..

And like a common thread...

Hmm, you're pulling me..

When I hear my favorite song...

I know that we belong..

Oh, you are the music in me...

Yeah it's living in all of us..

And it's brought us here because,

Because you are the music in me...

Na na na na (Ohh)..

Na na na na na....

Yeah yeah yeah(Na na na na)..

You are the music in me...

It's like I knew you before we met (Before we met)..

Can't explain it (Ohh ohh)..

There's no name for it (No name for it)..

I'm saying words I never said..

And it was easy (So easy)..

Because you see the real me (I see)..

As I am You understand...

And that's more than I've ever known....

To hear your voice (Hear your voice)..

Above the noise (Ohh ohh)..

And no, I'm not alone...

Oh you're singing to me (Ohh yeah)..

When I hear my favorite song...

I know that we belong (Yeah ohh)..

You are the music in meIt's living in all of us..

And it's brought us here because...

You are the music in me...

Together we're gonna sing (Yeah)..

We got the power to sing what we feel (What we feel)..

Connected and real.....

Can't keep it all inside (Ohh)...

Na na na na (Ohh yeah)..

Na na na na na (Ohh yeah)..

Yeah yeah yeah (Na na na na)..

You are the music in me (In me)..

Na na na na (Ohh yeah)..

Na na na na na (Ohh yeah)..

Na na na na..

You are the music in me...

When I hear my favorite song (Favorite song)..

I know that we belong (We belong)...

You are the music in me...

Yeah it's living in all of us...

It's brought us here because (Here because)..

You are the music in me,

Na na na na (Ohh yeah)....

Na na na na (Ohh yeah)..

Na na na na.

When things use to make sense!! Argh!?

2008-04-14T01:41:00.003+08:00

When things use to make sense and when things were different

i cld totally understand his situation and all but it's nt ryte that when i give the benefit of the doubt that u take advantage of my kindness c'mon

the least u could hav done was sent me a simple stupid msg thks alot i was happily waitin and lookin forward to ur call.

This isn't fair.

Whatever ok seriously u tell me nt to give up and all but u seem to be doing otherwise.

I'm hoping he gives me an explanation tmr if he even calls la so horrible.

I hav no mood to blog bout my day cos' u sorta ruined it for me by ending my beautiful day with ur irresponsibility.

If they had taken up ur time for calling u cld hav jus msg me at least i'd knw!!!

I'm nt like u i knw how to think it jus takes a minute to type and send a sentence.

Grow up!

Be responsible or everyone will lose trust in u soon.

This is the world u're the only one exception for ur type of weird behaviour.

Dont blame me cos' tmr if u blame me i'm gonna be damn disappointed i giving u the benefit of the doubt for today we'll see how many times u act this way frm there i'll knw wad to do.

U always say ppl change but no matter how a person changes things within them especially their values remain no matter what.

I'm nt selfish nor revengful so I still love u no matter wad i'll neva bear a grudge against you cos' i'm sincere bout my feelings but i'm nt a fool i've to love and look out for myself too.

I'm in no mood now.

Let's see wad he does now since he talk so much bout wad he'll be doing and he told so many ppl stuff i'll jus wait and see..

I'm done always givin in!!!!!

'=classic='

2008-04-12T08:00:00.003+08:00

Honesty is the best policy----> Such a famous quote!

How many ppl actually follow this phrase?

Such a long day i slept at 10pm. Was too tired and slept thru' the night.

I woke up at 6am! Early like darn early cant fall asleep ready so no choice.

Later meeting esther at 4 plus to go get a gift and to go out for a while.

Yesterday, baby called at 6.58pm he talked for a very short while jus 3 mins then after that he said he'll call back but he didnt guess his family talked to him and took a lot of his time.

I miss him. Today when he calls i'll ask wad happened.

Poor baby he told me he misses being outside.

He is sleepin on the top deck of the double decker bed room 6 bed 1 hmm.. he said the food there is ok.. haha he was lookin forward to the food over there Paul is booking into camp on Sunday night so baby will only see him on Monday. Wen Jie is in C group baby is in B group so he'll be alone for orientation but in the end they will merge next week so i'll be cool.

Thinking bout u alot dear take care of urself kinda worried bout his asthma. Hmm.. ok i'm gonna go cook somethin.

I'll update things later.

Too busy lately~

2008-04-11T09:46:00.001+08:00

He's in camp ready freaking sad he had to go in before 9.30am.Busy, busy, busy.. hmm..
We met on wednesday and he told me that it might be the last day i see him before he enters NS but he met me yesterday morning too!? =)
I was so happy to see him.
He was actually very sleepy but he met me for 2hrs.
We're holding on still and he told me to never let go so i won't.
Today i'll be waiting for his call but it'll be a short call cos' he has to talk to his family too.. hee!
Bored ryte now jus watchin tv and using the net.
My eyes swelled up yesterday it's quite pain my mum said it's infected a lil' worried bout it.
Later i goin' for dinner with mummy, i will be meeting her at her office.
2 yrs he'll be in army hope it goes by fast.. la la la la la la la...
Sunday celebrating lynette's birthday with her meeting her at 1pm in town.
Hazel has been tied dwn with her job i feel bad for her non-stop she has so many full shifts and her 1 and only off day isn't enuf for her to rejuvenate.
Hard to meet up with her also but i understand she's tired.
I wanna go shoppin' haha.. i wanna get new shades, another bag, some clothes & a new pair of shoes either palm or open toe or heels..
see how.. anyway my computer batt is dyin' lazy to charge now so i'll stop bloggin will be updating soon bout bf and his army when new photos of him "botak" in army uniform i'll upload yea?

loving baby forever kisses love!

`Hoping for the best~

2008-04-06T02:11:00.003+08:00

Home sweet home, been home all day today n yesterday,
saw esther today talked a bit jus updated her on things guess wad
even she thinks the situation is nt fair to us so check it out
even old friends see when somethin is wrong n unfair ha!
I suppose i aint insane or dreaming i was spot on about this thing haha..
Well, bored to death actually SIM may nt work for me it's freaking far to be darn honest so yea. Hazel told me MDIS is a gd sch so ya thinking bout it hmm.. will see how next week gonna apply ready gotta think quick..
I dont wanna make the wrong decision it's my future so thinking alot yar..
Bf called when i in the toilet n msg me he said i was an evil creature for nt answering his call, i replied him bk n he told me to call him cos' he said: only able to hear ur voice for a short while. Called him n he was being sweet told me he miss me n all so i told him i was surprise he called..anyway he is nt free to meet tmr his bro bk frm camp tmr so he has to go out.. sigh..oh well..
Then he said tmr he will msg when he can n might call if he finds a loophole, i'm glad he's tryin. Frm wad he said it seems monday night we'll be meeting so keepin my fingers crossed for it to happen..gtg now gonna slp*

love ya!
`ameliashah~

Too much to bear in between passion n pain~

2008-04-05T00:35:00.003+08:00

I'm so distroted by things everythin was ok but today out of no whr he had to jus blow up in a msg i mean if i did somehin wrong then i'll totally agree that it's my fault but i dont deserve it knw i'm human too so silly he's acting like a kid one moment gd one moment bad attitude which is which?.. I've told him nicely to sort out his thoughts cos' he was literally fightin n rattling at the wall i jus kept quiet n told him to chill out n no matter wad i told him frm my heart that i truly love him no matter wad happens n i'll always care n worry for him cos' he is someone dear to my heart. thats true love n i believe it never fades. He didnt msg me for a while then he suddemly said ok he's sorry he stressed out so yup. Sometimes, it's tough handling him i do love him dearly i think i'm crazy dunno..he has changed bk to his old self in a certain percentage it's nt that pleasant but whatever flaws he has i accept it humbly.. i wish god cld cut me some slack i really miss the old times together with him it is a horrible feeling to yearn for somethin u once had. `-'^*'~` So fustrating these days having so many obstacles. Jus a short poem i wrote to him a week ago:

Wad love is there when there is no one to share it with?

Wad is happiness without the simplicity of life?

Wad brings tomorrow when today feels like it is the end of all ur hopes & dreams?

It's only the one who loves u frm their heart that can give u everythin with the lil' things in life frm a lovable heart.

I Love You! =)